Just Dance

People~

I've an announcement to make. I've finally got my appeal result and yes, i've got it.

I've UKM's Law. Obviously i didn't want UKM but the course is what i want. *sigh* and i didn't want to go for it but i guess i've no other choice. i argued with my parents, cried the whole night and day but to NO avail. so, i really have no other choice. owh well.

I'm not sure if i've to stay on campus or am i allowed to travel everyday. so we'll see how things work out tomorrow. everything happened so fast, things just came like that and honestly, i am quite shocked. my holiday has finally ended. =(


ps: the world is quiet and it doesn't hear you - Ben

Let's party this meaningless party and play that meaningless chess game.

yesterday i was blog hopping, then i came across lyndy's blog. her latest post is about life and how it's like through her own eyes.

and you know what? i so agree with her. after reading it, i thought of something like hers.

to me, life's like a masquerade party. you go to that grand party and you'll see lots of people. guys in tux of different colour and shades, girls in dresses that is either so glamorous or trashy. it's like a first impression thing, you see people of all shapes and sizes just like how you see people in tux and dresses.

and then you start introducing yourself to these people in their masks. their masks are either scary, beautiful, outrageous or unique. and.. you start to wonder, what's really behind that mask? how does that person look like without it? does the face behind it suit the mask he/she is wearing? and by that, i am meaning the personality. the same person in the mask you've met would wear another mask to another party. so you see, in different situation, people wears a different mask.

and why we're all so complicated? to survive. to survive, we need that mask to fit in. to survive, we need to dance to the music being played. to survive, we need to play that boring chess game.

yes, life's also like a chess game whether you like it or not.

at times you're the master of the game and at times you'll stump so low that you're just a mere pawn.

and so, right now, you're playing your game well. i can see it. i'm pretty sure you know i know. continue to play your game well dear, i believe you've yet to meet the real master. she may be a pawn right now? but who knows what's the outcome? you could be the queen and she the pawn but who knows it's the other way round?

or maybe, she's the master in her game, and you are yours. and you guys are just mere pawns in each other's game.

hmm, i'll be watching. oh sure you're winning right now. right now. but we'll see. =)

Courage is all i need.

They say in order to love someone, you have to love yourself first.

i say, it might not be true. or at least i don't really agree 100% on it.


cute pic courtesy of natalie s of akrichan.net.


It's weird you know. the phrase about loving yourself first. I find myself thinking about it. Does it mean you have to be selfish? To put yourself first before others? Or does it mean treating yourself right with respect and love?


i ponder. If that phrase applies..


i'll have everything that i wanted. designer handbags, limited edition phones, the most expensive laptop, the most beautiful dress, a nose job (=P), a knee job to be taller, a huge mansion with gorgeous furnitures, all the best seller books, a killer career, vacation to exotic places and the list just runs like water running down the stream.


i'll do the things that i want to do. join beauty pageants (which i don't think i have the guts), take up makeup course and hairdressing course, start my own dessert restaurant ( i love love love dessert!), open an online boutique, and it goes on and on.


i'll just be myself. say what i want to say (honesty is the best policy eh?). think what i want to think(being judgmental which i try to avoid). dress haggardly.(okay, that was just a joke!). i'd still wanna dress up like myself. =)


i'd be the ultimate B**** like queen Blair in gossip girl. on the second thought, maybe i wanna be claire bennet from heroes. then i don't have to worry about breaking any bones. xD



PORINGS! X3 uber uber cute!



So yeah, the term hardly applies. to me, i think. as in, love myself first. i think it's easier for me to love someone more than myself. i find it easier to give. it makes me happy to give. but if i give myself, i'd feel guilty. that, i don't know why. as much as i love giving, i love receiving too. =)



but i won't be a total doink la. i do love myself, if not i won't do some certain things which i want like dying my hair complete with highlights. getting myself a nice dress from an online boutique( yeah, i shop online these days ). sleeping early in the morning and wake up around noon. always changing my nail colour regardless fingers or toes.

and.. i realize...

it isn't enough.

i need courage.

courage to do the things that i want to do. especially posing for pictures. =P i don't think the cameras love me. i have to stop thinking that way. XD


and to prove that i love myself!


i'm gonna have lunch now. my stomach is growling.


and to show that i love ben,


i'll msg him. telling him i'm having the most wonderful lunch while he's in class. mwahahaha!


just kidding! =P



ps: i'll msg him to say the things that i want to say. =)

Dreams

The past few nights, i've been having really odd dreams.. But last night, i've had the oddest dream ever.

i dreamt of..

a) Some beach in don't know which country.



I could still remember it vividly. coz i woke up from it like an hour ago? LOL. The water was deep blue even at the shallow part(now i know i have colourful dreams but i could oni remember blue, white and black). in my dream, the beach wasn't stretch so big. it was a small semi-circle beach for god-knows-what reason. I mean, how could i dream of a pretty beautiful beach that is so small? and it was bloody packed. honestly. i didn't drown in the water, i was drowning in the sea of people. ekk!


next ; b) Cameron Highland





Yeah, i dreamt of that too. In the very same dream or most prolly, my brain decided to change channel or something. It was really weird because it was exactly like how cameron highland was except, i don't remember the strawberries. most prolly, the flowers is enuf to satisfy me, i guess. heh heh~


c) Kristine and Melody



Yeah wey, i actually dreamt of these two people. (-_-") we weren't at the beach together la. But it was in an entirely different thing. See, the thing is, we're supposed to have lunch together today. In my dream, Kristine called to cancelled it saying that she and mel wanna go Penang. WTF? Penang?! Yeah, Penang. Why Penang? Not coz of the assam laksa or whatever. it's cause there's this CLEO magazine party thing. dotz. Kristine doesn't really read cleo, i don't know about mel though, i think she does, sometimes.


d) Ben





Yeah, it's normal la that he's in my dream. Heh heh heh. But thing is, we were arguing badly. And he was the one who was with me in the beach dream. reason of the huge row? coz he refused to teman me get into water. (-_-") i don't know the reason. i mean, i can't remember why he refused the deep blue water. xD and then i was merajuking like crazy. (-_-") not that it's not normal. the me, merajuking part.


and the reason for all these weird dreams in one night?


i pin the blame on the coming stpm. *rolls eyes*

And the answer is..

21 Alphabets.


WHY?!!!


Because E.T left in U.F.O.. =D


ET of course la leave in UFO. takkan? car?! xD


cha dou kan?! hahahahahahahahahahahah!



ps: bloody root canal robbed me off RM365!! Now i'm officially broke with no spare money for any kind of indulgence. *sniff sniff*

Time Of My Own..

Trials ended last friday. Boy, it was sweet. NOT.

Apparently, while i was busy writing, my tummy starts contracting and convulsing. And then there's IT. IT = CRAMPS.

NOT GOOD.

Came home feeling damn weak and sick. Took my lunch then sleep the whole day. then i saw it.

romance. hey, the writer and i share the same name. stephanie. only hers is spelled stephenie. LOL.


I was kinda interested in the book ever since i saw it but didnt dare to buy it coz sometimes, i buy the wrong choice of book, meaning i pay through my nose but never truly enjoy the book. Sandra brought the book home. She borrowed it from one of her friends and since, i need to de-stress, i just thought, why not?

i didn't regret it a single bit. heck, i even finished it on the very day itself. mind you, it's thick like 498 pages? i wish i could study the way i read the book. damn i'll be smart. LOL.

it was really nice in the romance kinda way.

i m a sucker for romance. but the funny thing is, i m a sucker for reading them NOT watching them. Not that i mind but well, i just dont have as much interest in romantic movies compared to books. i am nuts. i know that. =D i just love imagining the characters in my own way you know, it's sparks my imagination.

movies don't. you see what's there and that's it. so since twilight spark my interest, i bought the 2nd book of the series. =)

and this book costs me rm40! ekk! =(

I haven't started on it coz right now i m concentrating on movies. I just got my Supernatural series! wheee~ *kisses the dvd cover* and i've even gotten ben hooked on the series. =P but i am dying to get my hands on it, soon.

and so, stephie shall go watch movies and then read the book. *sigh* i love exams aftermath. makes me WANT to relax like the real thing is over when it's not. =(

see you guys around. =) xoxo.

I'm Going To Be Away People!

clumps of cotton in the blue skies.

I know i've been pulling a lot of dissappearing acts lately but i can't help it. =/ i'm sorry.

here's the thing. my computer is dead. again. yeah, again. i think this will be the 3rd time in a year? i don't know. sorta lost track of how many times it has been down. ekk. so since it's down, i wont be updating anytime soon.

owh, and my trials is like next week starting on the 9th and ending on the 19th. So, obviously, i won't be around again.

*ps: i think the comp knows my trials is coming and therefore decided to die, just so, i would stop blog hopping and study. =D i love my comp*

Anyway, i hope you guys enjoy your days. =D and wish me luck! See you guys soon! =) and do take care! =)

*pss: i love THE BEST DAMN THING by AVRIL LAVIGNE*

*psss: I so love her concert though it wasn't as great as gwen's but who cares! xD i will dye my hair blond like hers with pink streaks in the future. =P*

*pssss: don't you love the weather these days? i do! with the cloudyness and stuff. =D*

Tagged again. =)

I love blog hopping. You get to see all sorts of post. update with ppl's lives though sometimes it can be pretty boring (i'm NO exception). other than that, it's okay i guess.

i fell through flora's blog and noticed she tagged me. and yeash, i do drop by once in awhile though i've nvr leave any comments before. =3 so since i'm feeling pretty free rite now, it's no harm to do the tag. =)

1. If you could spend one Ringgit in 5 minutes, what would you spend on?

guave with loads of asam! =)

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
watching tv. blog hopping. hanging out with friends. hanging out with my prince! =)

3. What kind of news do you read?
anything but politics and sports.

4. What would you give up in return
to eat all you want in the world and not get fat?
as stupid as it sounds, i eat to live not live to eat. though i do enjoy good food once in awhile. =)

5. Is there someone in your heart right now?
yeap! =)

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
sorry, i can't. i mean, i still need money for food you know? eesh. though i eat to live, i still need to eat to survive. like hello? xD

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
my family, ben and friends, obviously.

8. What do you feel like doing right now?
going away from here. i don't know. i'd love to be away. =D

9. If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
yeah, i confess to him everyday. most prolly every few hours too! hahaha!

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
perfectionist. good artist. generous.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
i don't have much requirements to be honest. =) and i've prolly gotten the best. =)

12. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
actually, it's the person's personality that makes me think so.

13. Do you feel like killing someone at the moment?
who? LOL.

14. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
fishball noodle? xD

15. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
i wanna be rich and happy. LOL. i think i wanna be happy. what's the point of being rich and unhappy eh?

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
my laziness!

17. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
Ben. Kristine. Sandra. Mel. Darren.

18. Name one song and why.
the best damn thing by avril lavigne. because it's very catchy and i've just heard it from her concert last nite!

19. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
urhmmmm.. i don't know.. >.<

20. If you have a million ringgit,what would you do?
i'll buy all the things i've ever wanted. and then i'll donate abt 100k to charity. i'll share with my family and ben. and invest. hey, most prolly, i dont even have to study anymore. xD

My Name Says Me..?

I was blog hopping earlier and i landed on Melody's blog. =) and well, she posted a really interesting link. =) thought maybe i should give it a try too but hey, the result came out was totally unexpected. ><


wavy hair steph.


It's webbie that can tell you your personality through your name. As absurd as it sounds, there are a few truths in it. =)

STEPHANIE LEE SHEN LING :

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.
Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems.
Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.


You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.


You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.


there! those highlighted ones are the ones i agree with it. Well, over all, it's not totally true but at least i've an insight of how i truly am. =D And for those of you who are interested. You can go to http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/
for an insight of your own name. =)

i come, i see... i do.

Schooling days are back. *sigh* and there goes one week of pure relaxing with, of course, a few rounds of nervous attacks(trials coming!!) and also pms(pre, present and post menstrual symptoms) . I love holidays! GAHHHHH! but alas, it's over. =(

time to go back to where i don't belong.


People were acting all jakun abt my hair. and the non-stop teasings. grow up people! want me to send you guys to sg wang and see the worst?

let's just navigate from that. xD school was as boring as ever. Jeez, why did i even thought it was fun when i was in lower 6? (stephie's mind: because you had been on holiday for a good goddamned 6 months before going to school!)

I was studying. you know, preparing for trials. I want to be AWESOME. xD just kidding! it's pretty impossible come to think of it. =( i mean, people were studying while i was gala venting all over the place. =( so back to my story, i was studying.. and studying.. and...

STUDYING!


Yeah, eventually, i fell asleep on my book. post-holiday symptoms.. =D


Then the last 2 periods, we were required to go to the library, to do our assignments there since every type of source (reference book, teks book, magazines and etc, NO COMPUTER) is there.

While i was doing my work alongside with CK, Wai Hong, Raymond and Dick Shen.. i heard something.. it was soft.. it was like... URGGG... I look around, wondering where did that noise came from.. since i couldn't identify who made the sound, i continued doing my work.. then i hear it again.. a bit louder now.. it went like.. URGGG... Again, i look up and look around.. and again, i couldn't quite find the source..

when in stress, look into the sky and think positive. =)


URGG... Okay, this time it's LOUDER and i KNOW it came from behind me. I turned, my teacher was sitting the table behind me and there's no other ppl who's in such a close range to me that i could possibly hear those noise.

Steph: you hear anything?
CK: like?
Steph: like URGGGGGG...?
CK: yeah.. why?
Steph: where do you think it came from?
CK: (turns and look behind) teacher?
Steph: serious?
Raymond: NO la, it's from the students behind me.

anonymous: URRRRGGGGG..

everyone: -giggles-

Wai Hong: I think it's from behind us(raymond, wai hong and dick shen : they were sitting opposite us(CK and i) )

CK and Steph: okay..

Then we keep on doing our thing you know, we are damn busy ppl with lots of assignment.. JUST KIDDING!

just for laughs. =)


then the students sitting behind raymond and the geng left.

and then...

URGGGGGGGGGGG...


i couldn't stand it..


i started giggling like there's no tomorrow. even CK did too. because we know where it came from.

Dick Shen: It's from the teacher!!!
Raymond: how do you KNOW?
Dick Shen: I saw her mouth opening and she went like URGGGGG..

URGGGGGGGG...

gone case. we giggled. we laughed. we giggled and we laughed till tears were threatening to roll down our cheeks.


the teacher has been BURPING for SO many times all these while!

Raymond: you should be thankful it didn't come out the other way round. *snickers*
Steph: I'm thankful she didn't eat any durians. *giggles hard*

and well, that was abt it, we completed our work and handed it. and then, we leave. =) raymond suggested this post. =)


ps: i come, i see... i do meaning i went to the library, saw the question given and actually did it. =P

Guess What?

It's a friday and i'm at home. sweet. =D I skipped school.. nyah~ my purpose is to study at home, prepare for my trials but well, it has taken a huge twist! xD i set my alarm at 8.30am. it rang. when it was ringing, i was wondering who is calling me, my brain couldn't process the ringtone until..it does and i realize it was the alarm! hit the off button and went back to bed.

in the end, i woke up at 9.45am. =/ 1 hour and 15 mins later than i've planned. i came down and saw a mess on the dining table. bowls, cups, newspapers. *sigh* it's gonna be a long day. i slowly creep into the kitchen and into the washing machine room to check if there's laundry. *prays there's none!* and lo behold! there is. *sigh* had my breakfast grudgingly thinking about the pile of laundry. then my work begins! clean the dining table. then do the laundry. Unlucky me, i stepped on Milo's SHIT with sandra's slippers while i m on the laundry. i think she'll blow when she finds out.

Then head upstairs to clean my table. it's about an inch of dust and hair. epp! and then, since i'm at it, i thought it'd be best if i clean the toilet as well. i finished everything about 1130am. *sigh* came online to chat with kristine, to find out later plannings but i think she's asleep. poor kristine, she's suffering insomnia. =/

People, MUET results are coming out next wednesday! eppp! why can't it be monday?! now, i m suffering sleepless nights thinking about it! *sniffs sniffs* Owh well, i'm hoping for the best. =) a band 5 is enough for me. =3 Owh well, my current addiction is Leave Out All The Rest by Linkin Park. It's nice though it sounds very very emo. I think it's a suitable song for graduation, non?

Song: Leave out all the rest by: Linkin Park

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming I woke with this fear
What am I leaving When I'm done here
So if you're asking me I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

whee! ben's here! catch you guys soon!

PMS

Q: What's worst than encountering a hungry lion/tiger/ wild boar/crocodile and etc?


A: Running into a woman suffering from PMS.



vain vain us.


Yeah well, i am pretty sure everyone knows it's best to avoid woman suffering from pms, namely yours truly here. And i'm also damn sure i've had a few posts talking about my "pontianak monster syndrome". And again it happens i'm blogging on the day where i'm suffering from it.

Not that you guys would really wanna know since i'll become less patient, blow up at least once a day, being really REALLY moody, being really REALLY manja with ben, my dad and urh.. sandra and etc. wait.. did i mention i'll get upset easily too? =/


how can i not love you when you're so adorable? =3


This week hadn't been a great week for me. Stressful for sure. and on top of that i've met the biggest M*****F***** in my whole life. I'm serious. Firstly, it was the school carnival, my class, we don't have the brightest student really.. =/ especially when it comes to business.. and we're all turning into alphas.. meaning we want to take control of stuff especially me.. OH MY GAWD.. I'm turning into one of the most hateful people on earth.. *sigh* i blame my PMS because i'm NOT like that.. I don't like to shoulder responsibilities.. especially one that decides if we make profit or lose money.. *urgh*


hottie and me.


Okay, as for the M*****F*****, it's actually my EX tuition teacher. I've never met anyone like him and it made me made a pact where i will NEVER deal with that kinda person anymore. Owh trust me, it's easy to tell *i'm not telling you how i'll decide if a person deserves to be in THAT lowest of the low category*.

So i'll call him DONKEY since his name starts with a D. Started teaching us around February and was always late for class for 30 minutes but leave exactly on time. So what happened was, last holiday *the 2 weeks one*, two of my friends went off holiday and i have to be the middle person to cancel classes. in total, we cancelled off 3 classes.

After school started, i contacted DONKEY for replacement and he agreed to have it on friday at 10am. But that very morning DONKEY smsed, bring it to 1130 which i agreed. Friends and i went but tuition centre wasn't open, so we waitied for 15 mins, knowing he will be LATE as USUAL, we went off to OLD TOWN for breakfast. Guess how long we spend there? 2 FREAKING HOURS. We called and called and called. and messaged. That ASS didn't pick up. Didn't reply.


never fail to cheer me up. =)


Then he msged asking if it was alright to bring it to sunday. which CK replied saying okay. Then on sunday morning, i msged to confirm. he didn't reply as usual. we went there on time but again, we were made to wait about 30 mins, he didn't come. This time, CK was bloody furious, msged him. We ask him to be punctual the next time. we even said PLEASE. but ASS went like "mind your language." WTF rite?

Then we decided to quit. basically we can't stand his attitude. Then we went to get back our deposit. he treated us like we were beggars and said he doesn't want our money. *snorts, yeah rite!* and said he'll ask his mum(tuition centre owner) to call us.


because you're so CUTEEEEEE! *random*


And as predicted. NEVER call us or anything. So yesterday my friends went to ask AGAIN. I didn't go as i was having dinner. Guess what? He raised his voice, denied every of his fault, blamed every shit on me, refused to pay back our deposits, ask them to get lost and go to hell.

Yeah. Owh, i wish him dead. seriously. the MF called my dad up and said i didn't pay my may fees which is true and which i DIDN'T want to pay since he refused my deposit. But my dad, as nice as he is, went to pay the rm100 when he should have waited for me if he's afraid of creating a scene because i don't freaking care. It's MONEY which i can spend on my revision books. And to count properly, even if my dad wants to pay it's only rm25 because we cancelled 3 classes.


i love baby cloudy too! =3


*growls* when i found out he went and paid the money. I was freaking furious. I actually ranted on my dad for 15 minutes scolding as many vulgarities at the MF as possible. My dad laughed it off. *rolls eye* how typical of my dad. He just got conned rite under his nose and he didn't feel furious. =/ i mean which sane person wouldn't be angry?!

God, i swear i'll study hard and sue the bugger when i become a certified lawyer. i don't care if it's a few years back kinda thing but i'll make sure he can't make a living in this world for cheating people's money. on top of that, i think i'll roll a tong of cylinder gas with a wick attached and blow the bloody tuition centre up. I love the idea very much. I hope he goes down with it.


before going to bangsar with kristineeeeee.


I'm really sorry people have to see the real sadistic side of me. Well, i blame it all on the horror movies i've been watching like crazy. but what i'm not sorry is.. finding a way to bring down his tuition centre now.. or maybe somewhere near in future.. and by that time, he'll be SORRY..


Someone is reporting him to JPS aka Jabatan Pendidikan Selangor. HAH!

Back, Away, and Back Again.

It has been so long since i've updated! X3

It's NOT my fault really. I mean the comp just died, and well, it really died and was REALLY send for repair that came up to rm300?

So here i'm now~! =)

After going MIA for awhile, a few ppl were asking me, what did i do.. as in life without a computer..

If u really wanna know, it has been a real interesting...NOT!

All i ever did was, read novels, watch the tele, sleep, eat, study a bit, SHOPPING, go for movies.. and that was it.. nothing interesting really! xD

us. again! =)

Well, as much as i love to update you guys on what i've been doing, i can't. the reason is.. my comp cant read my phone memory card anymore since it got back from the "hospital". =(

All my photos which i'm dying to post up is in there so you guys have gotta wait till i get the external card reader thingy.. and it's not coming cheap.. rm35.. =( Hey! i can buy a shirt/top/ 3 subway sanwiches and lots other things too u know? =/

i know i sound totally frugal but i can't help it. ekk!

Owh and that pic, i stole it from ben's friendster profile.. *giggles evilly*

Okay la, i guess this is it. =) shall update "sooooon"..I HOPE..

Holiday~

stephie feeling exactly like snow bunnie.


Each time, after exam is over (be it monthly, midterm or whatever crap there is), i feel this tremendous weight lifted from my shoulder. =) it's like, i'm finally able to do whatever i have wanted to do during the exam week/month.

And whenever the exam is over, i'll start hibernating like some sort of fat-deprived bear because lack of sleep and it's time to catch up the amount of beauty sleep!
Owh, and another thing i hate about exam is, you tend to be always on the edge, getting the huge doses of headaches, worries and of course, STRESS which causes those unwanted tenants on your face (pimples, blackheads and acnes) and holiday is always, the time for these unwanted beings being poked and squeeze. *i feel a tad bit disgusted here*


exams always make me feel helpless.


Normally, I'd feel like this whenever the exam is over. i mean like this :





Like damn relax. I can sleep whenever i want. do whatever without worrying tomorrow's a school day and that includes, watching tv till late at nite, reading NOVELS *i've been deprived of it since i'm always tight on cash and TIME* , shopping and urh.. *thinks* onlining? I was freaking happy for the fact that i've 2 weeks time to actually spend my time on doing things which i m robbed of but lately..

Lately i've been worrying about ntg other than my lack of adequate knowledge to answer spontaneous question without a book. and of course the results for my MUET. I was hoping to score band 6 but i think i have to lower my expectations. =/ I'm not willing to have it lower than band 5. band 5 or 6 is acceptable but if i get a freaking band 4, i'm resiting it.

plus, i'm now on a hormone roller coaster. i get upset easily. i get impatient. i get.. well, i think i'm on my way to behaving like a madwoman. =/ what i'm saying is.. PMS!


i am freakily attracted to bunnies lately. =/


I think what i need is.. retail therapy with friends. i am serious, though i'm broke. =/ *sigh* anyone wants a pasar malam trip on tuesday? =(

NUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

DAVID ARCHULETA LOST!


*sniff sniff*



i was hoping he would win.. afterall, he's like so.. CUTE? =( *i feel so peadophilic (i just created that word myself*.. other than being cute, he look pretty humble and he can sing songs that melt chocolates *according to raymond*..



he's so cute. xD reminds me of a urm.. baby seal.. xD


I thought his winning would cheer me up after a day of hell in school. Business studies is seriously killing me and i'm preparing to fail it this time. *smiles happily* because i didn't know a single answer for all the questions. Sweet isn't it? owh well, i think most probably david cook deserves it too as he has well, the talent? not that david archuleta lack of it but..

ps: i dont like david cook because he always look so smug on tv or rather after his performance or such.. *tsk tsk* and i hate brooke white because personally i think she's quite beautiful *she reminds me of a freaking mermaid*


*sigh* another day of hell tomorrow and i shall be free for the time being. I'm thinking of giving up already though.. though that's just so not me but i'm having a huge headache and lack confidence for tomorrow's paper.. afterall.. it's business studies for a not so business minded person like yours truly.


okay, i better go, just came to tell the world that i'm feeling down because david archuleta lost, i suck in my exams and and.. i'm preparing to get drilled, shot or perhaps nucleared after the holidays.. *grins* i feel so sadistic now..







ps: i hope ben would create a doraemon for my sake so that doraemon will gimme that bread which u stamp on books and eat it, then all the info is in ur brains. and by then, i wouldnt mind having bread for 3 meals a day. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I'm gone. *grins* someone need to call the looney for me. xD

I m NOT back yet.

It's a wonder how my title and my blog's existence actually sounds quite opposite.

It's true. I m NOT back yet. =P

I'm currently on a program which is just FOR a mo. Mum still hasn't call the HP(DELL) ppl come to collect the CPU and it has not been functioning well till today, Sandra manage to access into the damned window and perform her magical fingers on the comp. TADAH! System Restored. . . . . BUT not for the days coming, it's not gonna last till that long. *sigh*


huge cheeks. huge cheeks. huge cheeks = bunnie-like.


MUET test wasn't really okay. *sniff sniff* i think i just kissed Band 6 goodbye with my sucky essay, i was crapping a lot of nonsense and it all links back to one and only point. Therefore, i shall not take the examiner for a fool. He/She would sooooooooooo place me in a band 5 category. =( but i'm still praying for the best! X3


Speaking test on monday and i'm feeling the jitters. I'm not a person who talks much, especially in english! hese days since my classmates all speak cantonese. I therefore am improving on my cantonese but deteriorating in my english which i think is a really bad thing! who really needs cantonese in a COURT? *sigh*


i'd say it's sunrise, what abt you?


I'm feeling the pressure of being in form 6 now. =/

i can't stay for long. Going off to do more and more revision. =) catch u guys around. =3




*ps: i did miss you Kristine, as gay as it sounds. LOL! and call me la. U expect me to know that u've left a messaged there after i announced the "abandon" of my blog for the TIME BEING. =P *

Just This Once and For A Month.

Tut. Tut. Tut.

Cpu's on the verge of giving up. Manage to turn it on this morning, in, non other than safe mode. *sigh*

Gonna admit it into the hospital soon! =(

Btw, i think it's a good thing because. . .

a) i have a perfect reason not to update! =D

b) i can concentrate on my studies for *jeng jeng jeng* MIDTERM! and MUET. *i need Ben's or Kristine's charisma for my speaking test! =(*

c) buddies can't complain if i'm not online because computer is in the hospital.

d) urmmm.. no reason for me not to study. =D

e) urhh.. won't waste time blog hopping from here to 4th/5th/6th degree blogs.

f) *squints* urmmm.. need to come up with ideas of my own for the one year anniversary.

g) . . . . . . .


owh well, and therefore i shall i announce the abandon of sensuoushennie.blogspot.com for.. the time being.. =D

take care people. =) I'll be back NOT soon. XD

It's May and We're 11 Months Old.

trinkets and tube tob.


Hmm, May is just an hour away. *sigh* I hate May. Why? Exams! *wails*

Last year, it was a totally laid back year for me but this year.. *rolls eyes* i had been busy, busy and busy. Meetings, curricular activities, tuitions, etc. You know what? I've tasted the taste of being in charged with stuff, and guess what? I don't enjoy it. I don't mind taking responsibilities but what i hate is, i'm being laden with stuffs and there're no one that's trustworthy enough for me to actually delegate those works to.

and the worst would be, those teachers giving me those glares. I haven't been a good student lately, basically because i'm getting really bored with my studies. I'm serious. and the teachers teaching method simply doesn't appeal me to me. OMG. I'm 19 and i'm hating studies. How am i supposed to survive through my years in university?!


i need a break NOW!


Owh well, studies aside. Another one month time, Ben and I will be in for our 1st anniversary! Yipppeee! xD




I need suggestion on what i should get for him for our one year anniversary. =D


Any good suggestions? So far i had...

~* made origami for him. (a bowl of love!)

~* make a scrapbook on 101 Reasons Why I Love You

~* cook spaghetti for him. (which he did most of the cooking.. =X)


Any other suggestions? Please leave comments, I need ideas. =D Thank You~

Kristine Tagged ME.

Kristine is weird.


WHY?


Because a lot of people tagged her but so far she had only done YH (not chris or izit chris)'s tag.


Why am i complaining?



I don't know. Maybe. Just Maybe.. I'm JEALOUS. MYAHAHAHA. Just kidding! =P



So here goes the game, be prepared to get tagged later! =P


Five Things In Within a 1-meter Radius Of Me Now :
1. Gossip Girl Novel
2. A bottle of water
3. Cup
4. Headset
5. Necklace

Five Things Always Found In My Hand Bag:
1. Foundation
2. Blusher
3. Facial Blotter
4. Purse
5. Handphone

Five Things Found In My Wallet :
1. Money
2. I.C.
3. Driving License
4. Receipts
5. Cards (not playing cards)

Five Favorite Things In My Room :
1. Bed
2. BLOSTERS! =D
3. Pillow
4. My mess...xD
5. Comforter! X3

Five Things I've Always Wanted To Do :
1. To sit under a tree and read when the weather is absolutely FINE.
2. To just stay at home one day and watch tv without having to be bothered with other things.
3. To spend time with my friends. =)
4. Travel across the globe with Ben/ friends/ sisters/ family. =)
5. To be able to earn a lot so i could donate away some to the charity without thinking.. "this isn't my money but my dad's hard earns."

Five Favorite Anything's I Own :
1 My ring from him. =)
2 My accessories.
3 Hammies! *much <3* style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Five Places I Want To Go :
1 Paris~
2 Rome~
3 Mauritius~
4 UK!
5 Milan! xD

Five Favourite Food Chains :
1 McDonald
2 Subway!
3 KFC
4 Sushi King~
5 Big Apple Donuts. *drools*

Five Favourite Movies :
1 Notebook
2 Wrong turn and wrong turn 2 xD
3 Harry Potter
4 Transformers
5 Pirates of the carribean

Five Favourite Songs AT the moment:
1 Our Song - Taylor Swift
2 With you - Chris Brown
3 Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
4 Until You - Shayne Ward
5 Realize- Colbie Caillat

Five Hobbies :
1 Sleeping
2 Onlining
3 Hanging out with my prince. =D
4 Reading good books
5 Hanging out with friends

Five Things I'm Currently Into :
1 Midterm! *screams*
2 More clothes!
3 More accessories!
4 Some weird stone which i'm oh so crazy about coz they make GOOD pendants.
5 the bunny with wings in sunway. it's cute. make that VERY cute. =(

Five Presents I Really Want :
1 Great Results for all my coming exams!
2 Happiness for everyone. =)
3 a little car. *kelisa, myvi, swift..* XD just as long it's not VIVA! xD
4 i want.. rm1 billion! xD *beats me what i'm gonna do with the money but owh boy! xD*
5 a holiday. just everyone i wanted to be there. =)


The Person Who Tagged Me Is :
Kristine Thong Mei Chuin~

My Five Impressions of Him/Her :
1 great friend
2 good listener, adviser * but she can be her own worst adviser =/*
3 curvaceous. =P
4 smart but lazy
5 kind. make that too kind these days.


The Most Memorable Thing He/She Has Done For Me :
hey, she has done a lot for me! =)

Five People I Tag :

I'm not gonna tag just 5. but everyone who reads it. =) do it if u like and if you don't, it's all up to you. Afterall, i wouldn't know if you've done it or not! =D