Woots!

i just want to be there.


The long awaited break has finally arrived! Yeap, it's not like i'm celebrating Raya but you know what? i really need the week long break and would most probably cry after when it's over. Zzz.

On a happier note, i've finally did something to my unruly rebellious hair! spot the new look!


ignore my wrinkled Winnie the Pooh shirt.


That look reminds me of form 4- lower 6 period. LOL. seriously, i look so young now! okay, maybe just a tad bit younger but still younger! haha. I miss my curls but with dyed hair, curls only makes the hair drier. Now, it's straight sleek and shiny. me like! thinking of colouring my hair back to black, then i'd look even younger!

This week has been okay. a little on the down side. Why? the amount of work, the lack commitment and cooperation, puasa no puasa, i feel like blowing up at the world. i am like a volcano waiting to erupt.


damn cute! me <3>


I don't like group work. Never like them. Actually i don't mind if we get to choose our group mates, i really don't mind that. that's cause you wont resent the world even if your groupmate doesn't do squat. But if the group's assigned by some other people, it's a disaster. We don't understand each other, some doesn't do shit, some do all the shit. Some wanna do shit but because the rest isn't acting like they give a shit, worries like shit!


and unfortunately, i fall into the "wanna do shit but because the rest isn't acting like they give a shit, worries like shit" category thank you. of course i'd be fair. I realized only two other group mate DID something where else the rest, i am sorry to say, sometimes i wonder what are you guys doing here at all. I won't say which group, i won't say who. You know who you are. And after Raya, buckle up! *grrrrr!*


Anyways, for the week, i've plan to revise! yeap! stephie wishes to do that and hopefully stephie fulfills it! ohhhhh, ohhh! i wanna watch Gamer, A perfect Getaway, G force and and.. hmm.. other slasher flick! The few weeks after raya, it'd be like shit again. actually, even worse. owh well, no pain no gain right?


because i can be as free as i want to be.


and i'll be as free as the butterfly after finals. then australia, here i come! =) oh yeash, it's confirmed. I'm going to australia from 14th nov to 8th dec! can't wait! X)

I am Back!

back then.


Hey people!

i know. i know. i've been away for far too long and you guys no longer wanna visit my blog anymore huh? =)

it has been such a long hiatus.

I am sorry for not fulfilling my promise of updating my blog. truly sorry! well, the reason why i haven't been doing so is because i've been so caught up with my uni life. let's just say, it sucks a huge time and i have been having doubts on whether i should continue with my course. well, ben managed to convinced me and so has ming yuen. thank you ming yuen for being there and for noticing the changes in me and manage to somehow, talk me out of those doubts and stuff. you're one of the best besides ben. =P

well, a lot has happened. trust me. especially the new addition in my family.

people, meet Baby Joey Gan Xing Qi!


just born!



and i'm gonna grow up and be a heart breaker.


baby joey is so adorable. she's gonna grow up beautifully, i really do believe that.

and you know what?

everyone loves her. =) even my cousins.hahaha.

i quote from Ryan.

"she's so cute! she look like a baby alien!"

like, wtf? which part? but i suppose that's how Ryan defines cute. hahaha.

alright, i'll update soon again. this time i promise and i will do it. =)

Home

No place feels as good as that. Not even the most expensive hotel suite..*pause* okay, maybe the most expensive hotel suite might you know, alter the fact that it feels better than home but there's NO place like home.

well, i've had my taste of living away from home in a DORM. the horror. i know. where you shower in a shared toilet with a few cubicles with no hot water. where you can only get food at the cafeteria. where sometimes you have to survive on bread, buns, biscuit or cup noodles. it's not fun. where you have to travel in shuttle buses and missed it when you're 5 minutes late to the bus stop.

so the thing is, i'm in UKM now. The place is alright. but don't expect to see many chinese or indians. my room is..half of my room size at home.. and i have to share it with another girl named Kai Lee. She's also taking law course which makes it better. thank god we're both from nearby or else i would feel bad leaving her alone whenever i go home on the weekend. my schedule now still look okay but it's gonna be super packed by the fourth week. *sigh* it makes me wonder if i had made the wrong decision but on the more positive note, all the activities here are to mould us into lawyers so that it'll be easier for us when we graduate. you know what? i can't wait for that day to come and i'm not even 2 weeks here.

why did i say there's no place like home?

home, you have your parents and you sibling/s. your meals are provided. you have the tv and computer to yourself. hell you even have your own bathroom in your room. home, also a place where alll your close friends dwell in 5km radius. at home, you can even have snacks. biscuits, sweets, cold drinks and etc. you even have your very own comfortable bed with comforter and 2 or 3 fluffy pillows not to mention your soft toys. i m thinking of my bennie bunnie and mmer mmer. XD

here.. you can't have all those.

*sigh* i m getting more homesick as i talk abt it. i better shush it or else. *shudders*

it's weird you know. i hate going to camps. i basically hate leaving home and now i am not home. and i do feel homesick but.. not THAT bad. most probably i am taking in the comfort of knowing home is just 20km away and that my parents will come an hour after one phone call of asking them to come pick me up. and also, the comfort of knowing that i'm not alone in this, that other people are facing it too. that this is the beginning of my life as an adult, too.

i hate growing up.it means spreading your wings and leaving the nest. i am slowly doing that. and it's gonna be a long process, as i see it.

kristine, now i know why you were crying on your 20th birthday. it does suck when the realization hits me. and it's sorta hitting me now. =(

i guess that's all for now. will update as soon as i can. =) most probably it will be soon. =)

till then, take care people.=)

Just Dance

People~

I've an announcement to make. I've finally got my appeal result and yes, i've got it.

I've UKM's Law. Obviously i didn't want UKM but the course is what i want. *sigh* and i didn't want to go for it but i guess i've no other choice. i argued with my parents, cried the whole night and day but to NO avail. so, i really have no other choice. owh well.

I'm not sure if i've to stay on campus or am i allowed to travel everyday. so we'll see how things work out tomorrow. everything happened so fast, things just came like that and honestly, i am quite shocked. my holiday has finally ended. =(


ps: the world is quiet and it doesn't hear you - Ben

As Fate Would Have It.

Here's the thing, I didn't get accepted into any local uni. period.

I can't believe it. i mean, it's really hard to believe that there isn't a place in any of the local unis for me, not even a place in mass communication though if i were to get it, i wouldn't go for it. I mean like wtf? i didn't get the consolation prize, at all. *rolls eyes*

And, i was f-king disappointed. I lived the last 6 months, dreaming of the day where i finally get into UM doing my law degree. No i won't settle for the 2nd best, or at least i don't want to. It was a shock really. Most of the people didn't quite expected it especially my family members. They refused to believe me until my voice cracked from holding back tears, then they finally understood. Telling my dad was the hardest, i totally teared in front of him.

I never resented those ppl. but now i sort of do. no wonder everyone wants to leave the country. the country has nothing much to offer them. nope.

i've spend almost 2 years to get into uni. one and half preparing for it. and the other half waiting for it. but owh well. basically, friday was prolly one of the worst day of my life.

and i don't want to appeal. what's the point? it's like BEGGING to get in. And i don't want to. I am desperate but i'm NOT that desperate. and UM doesn't allow ppl to appeal for its law course. wtf. so i appealed for UKM and UiTM, my dad went as far as asking for help from ppl. (-_-") i asked them to leave MCA outta it. I don't want to appear in the newspaper for this ninny stuff. i am willing to bet, i am not the only one with this stupid problem. and i will not be the first to do that this year.

i know my abilities. afterall, a true gold will never be afraid of fire (some chinese saying). that's what my dad told me a long time ago. and i say bring on the LLB and CLP!

on the brighter side, maybe fate has decided a different path for me. =) So now, while waiting for the appeal results, i'm scouting pvt universities for law course. =) and also, my parents are having my back. =) that's great to know. and of course, bennie and my sisters too. =3

this is just another chapter of my life. and it has proven, life is not easy. i'm okay now. it took one day, friday for me to sort out all my feelings. right now, i m not that worried. financial may be a problem but, let's just follow the river flow right now and see what the future has in store for me. =)

just thought you guys should know what's happening.

and no, i didn't get the f-ing premiere tickets. haha. X)

Couple Meme! *got it from Timothy Tiah's blog*

Okay people. Before you proceed on reading, can you please click on the adverts? please? please please please? pretty please? =3 Owh, and btw, i am updating my blog with two posts today so scroll down for more yeah? =) though it is pretty much all about ben and i. you guys are gonna be sick. mwahahaha. XD So it's time for couple meme~ =) yeash, today's our 2nd anniversary, and more to come i hope. =3 Here it goes~
*~ Tell us about the first time you met and your first impression of him/her:

Well, we met through friendster before meeting up on 1st of june 2007. =) we were playing "hide and seek" in MPH which i stupidly walk into him. and i was thinking, "wow, he looks better in person!" and he has got the most friendliest smile. *cheh wah!* X)

*~ What's a weird habit or quirk that he has?

his weird habit? *thinks* not that i can think of. maybe his love for cleaning. teehee~

*~ What makes him sad?

whenever we argue. =( it makes me sad too! and whenever i do things that disappoints him. =(

*~ What makes him angry?

urhm. stupid drivers. little things that makes him frustrated.

*~ What excites him?

eh? computer games! especially rayman! he can do a really good imitation of it!

~* Tell us something funny about him?

owh, just the other day he wanted to let this big one *ps:fart.* and he was telling me he needed to do that and it's gonna have a sound. so i was like okay, just do it outside my room. and then we were talking, suddenly he stood up and walked out of my room and i followed him, giggling. he just stood outside and ask me to go back in and i said, just fart lar. *i always laugh at my family members whenever it's a loud one* and well, he was so shy, it didn't came. teehee~ he thinks it's still too early to fart around each other. XD given that, i'd have been shy too. =P

~* What's he like at home?

he's a good son. always helping out his parents doing stuff. =) he's quite himself. =)

~* What's he like at work/school?

he's VERY serious when it comes to serious stuff. he doesn't fool around and apparently, he's sort of like a tyrant in his old school. but he's really a sweetheart. =)

*~ Describe his room

his room in klang is really neat and clean. he has got a lot of pillows on his bed. his room in subang is.. clean but messy. i think i influenced him a great deal. his room in subang i mean. =P

*~ What's his best friend like?

owh, tom is a really nice person. =) kinda blur at times but easy to communicate with. ben always bully tom. =/

*~ Do you know who he hates the most?

hmmm, not really. he dislikes quite a few ppl. but i dont think it is really bad till i should make note of it.

*~Have you met his exes?

haha. no. they aren't friends no more.

*~ Do his parents like you?

urhm, that you have to ask him. =(

*~ What's the first thing he would do or say if he fell down and scraped his knee?

F*CK! but it's not like he'll make a big deal outta it.

~* What would he do in an emergency situation with other people involved?

he would be the one taking control and stuff. he's not those bystander that watch the whole thing. he'll be the one telling people what to do and all. =)

*~ Which shop would he spend most of the time at in a shopping mall?

urhm, there isnt a shop in particular which he would waste his time on. but he usually spends a lot of time looking at kitchenware if we so happen to pass by. =/

*~ What would he have for a typical breakfast?

eggs? milk if possible or milo. not too sure. coz usually if he's here, we'd either go McD or mamak.

*~ Where would he want to go for dinner?

if we're in klang, it would be D'Tavern in Port Klang, if we're out, it depends. =) he's not a picky eater like yours truly. =D

*~ What kind of movie would he choose at the cinema?

action packed! X) war movies, sci-fi, comedy! anything BUT horror. teehee~

*~ Describe his taste in music?

he's pretty random like me. we can go anything from oldies to modern hits. =)

*~ If he wasn't going out with you, who would he be going out with?

some hot chick. LOL. well, he'd be going out with someone from his coll. i've asked him that question before. but since he's with me, i say it's not so nice to mention who's that girl. *winks*

*~ What item in his wardrobe would you like to burn?

nothing. =) he has a pretty normal dressing sense. =3

*~ What is he good at?

talking! LOL. he's good at cheering ppl up. =) and he's practically good at everything. there isn't a thing that he can't do.

*~ What is he totally horrible at?

controlling his mood swings. =(

*~ What's something about him that is annoying/infuriating?

urh, his mood swings only. and sometimes talking about sensitive stuffs. he's just being too honest. =/

*~ What's something that you two fundamentally disagree on?

a lot of ninny stuff ler. but it's not that bad. hahaha.

*~What's something that you two agree whole-heartedly on?

that person is a **********? =P

*~ Is he possessive?

owh yeah, he is but just enough. =D and i don't mind. i like that a lot. =D

*~ Why would he succeed in life?

he's both street-wise and book-wise. =) an all rounder that can practically do everything that he put his mind on.

*~ What is the coolest gift that he has ever given you?

it would be everything. =) and of course, the most fragile thing ever, his heart. <3

*~ What does he avoid at all costs?

hahaha! those beautiful things that flutters all over the place. *winks*

*~What does he spend the most money on?

me. hahaha. just kidding! he spends his money randomly and usually it is to make people happy. =)

*~ Describe his typical Sunday.

if he's with me, we woud have breakfast and then he'll proceed on bringing me out for movie or shopping. if he's back in klang, he would be doing chores and studying, completing his assignments. =3

*~ Why would he be dangerous?

he.. he.. = = he fights well and he bashes up people. there's this thief that wanted to rob him ended up being beaten by him badly. according to ben, he might have broken that thief's nose.

*~Tell us about a time he looked absolutely gorgeous

urhm. whenever he's all dressed up, he looks really good. =) especially yesterday. i've never seen him wearing pink. he think pink's for gays. i say real man knows how to flaunt pink! =D

*~ What's something about him that would surprise all of his friends?

he's a real softie at heart. i've seen it. XD and and.. he loves ****** too! and gives him kisses as well! XD

*~ What do you love most about him?

well, i love him for him. =) but what i love about him the most is his giving nature. he's always there to help and he's really generous. *ok, sometimes he's quite kiamsiap aso but let's not talk abt that* and his way of going all out to make ppl happy. his grandma loves him lots. she told me that ben's like his dad. a great guy with a big heart. Awwwww. =)

*~ The biggest lesson you have learnt from loving your soulmate.

he taught me a lot of things but most of all, i am learning to be as thoughtful as him. =) his giving nature is so beautiful that i'd really like to be like him but then, of course, to a certain degree where i won't lose my own personality or turn out to be a photocopy of him. and i've learnt to be more confident with myself. i feel really secured when i'm with him. there is not a moment where jealousy is at play. =)

Happy Birthday Bunnie! =3

today is my baby bunnie's birthday! X3


okay, that is so childish but i dont care! i m announcing to the world that i love my baby bunnie. why? because it's a gift from bennie for our 1st anniversary. yeash. =) our anniversary is tomorrow but we celebrated today because tomorrow's a monday and he has got classes so, it has to be brought forward. =)

so he came over on the saturday night with a.. huge bouquet of roses! =)


roses with the world's sleepiest looking girl.


it started at 12am when he gave me that card with our picture on it. *giggles* you don't wanna know what's inside and me giving him an envelopes of coupons. coupons that doesn't come easily. *winks* and that was my gift to him. =) then he proceeded to saying how sorry he is for not getting me any anniversary gift. truth to be told, i wasn't at all disappointed. the card itself was sweet enuf. and we went to bed. hahaha. i was freaking sleepy okay. the picture alone has said enough of it!


Usually i get more than 8 hours of sleep. But ben woke up early like around 8am? he went out of the room and tried to get into sandra's room. *her room was locked*, so he meddled with the lock for awhile until sandra got irritated and opened the door for ben. *i found out that part later* then he came into my room and closed the door. i tossed, irritated. *i'm a light sleeper, the slightest sound could jolt me awake*. then he climb onto my bed and hugged me. basically, he wants me to wake up. he asked me to sit up and he promised i wouldn't regret it in one bit. so i sat up. and he plop this silver box on my lap.



*shocked*


i was shocked. seriously. i didn't expect this. then i looked at him blurly and vaguely pick up the box.




i slowly open it as i was still half blur from sleep.





and i was fully awake. it was gleaming nicely. at that moment, i felt like i was being proposed and i was near tears. then i looked at him, is it real? *because he has already given me one, and he, himself one. and.. well, whether it is real or not, it is for you to find out and for us to know. LOL. =D

and yeash, i was fully awake. =D then we went for breakfast. MAMAK! =D i was thinking of McD's pancakes but it's so fattening. how come tasty food are always so fattening?!

Went back home, lepak for awhile ; reading newspapers and ben practising his singing. =) then we got ready to sunway pyramid. ben bought tickets for terminator salvation on last friday. so basically we had secured really good seats. =) have i mentioned, we camwhored quite a lot at home? =D


classic pose. LOL.



picture one. =D


yeash people. mirror in the living room. teehee~



puppy eyes!

initially we planned to have dinner in pyramid at TGIF's but then suddenly ben mentioned about having korean buffet, Seoul Garden. and we made a hasty decision but agreeing to go korean buffet and this time, we're bringing along sandra with us! =) and then we decided to check out the Seoul Garden at Pantai Plaza because it looks bigger than the one in ONE U. So Seoul Garden at Pantai Plaza it is.

Okay, backtrack! So we went to pyramid for our movie. the place was packed! finding parking was hard. we almost considered jokey parking before ben found a spot at the hotel parking. like seriously. it was almost full house! then only we found out why, it's because there was two events going on there. One is the dutch lady milk van thing with all the radio crews there and another is the movie carnival not to mentioned the daily sales going on.

ben and i went for a mini shopping trip since we had another 45 minutes before movie. we walked around rather aimlessly as he has nothing to buy and so do i. X)




Terminator Salvation is so cool! X) it's totally up to my expectation. i wasn't disappointed and so was ben. i shall not be a spoiler but.. christian bale is so hot! though i'd preffer him clean shaven.
and the half man-half machine actor is pretty good looking too! XD and and Anton Yelchin is so frigging cute! i already noticed him in star trek! =P and the little kid.. stupid credits for moving so fast, you can barely see the names except for christian bale's as john connor, duh.

owh well, directly after the movie we went home to pick sandra up before heading to pantai plaza for dinner. and it was.. bad. the place isn't run by chinese no more. =( and it looks very dingy. sandra said the interior lights look like those pasar malam one. you know light bulbs hanging down a string or something like that? =/ the food was good but.. the utensils aren't that clean. even the cup smells weird.

well, dinner was okay. =) chit chat and stuff sides the dingy place la. aih. but at least now we know that ONE U's Seoul Garden is far better than the Plaza Pantai one. =)


because i can. LOL.


so overall, it is a pretty good day. =) simple and normal. nothing to complicated. =) and i like it really. =3 besides dinner. Teehee~


hey bunnie, it's your birthday! we're gonna party like it's your birthday~