Oh.... oh...... OHHHHH...

I don't know what is wrong with me. =(


I crave for this thing that oozes warmth, that's sickly thick and sweet with a few tiny cubes.


Its taste, indescribable. Its aroma itself can send you floating towards the clouds.


i want it. i want ittttttttttt! *cries*


I want...


Jack's Place Apple Pie! (T_T)



No kidding. i've never fancied apple pie until one day when i tasted Jack's Place Apple Pie. It's warm, nice and.. and.. mouth watering delicious. =(


But right now, Jack's Place is so far away. I can only have this instead.




McD's Apple Pie.


Although the taste isn't as great as Jack's Place, but... it's the next best substitute for it.



Now, the only thing i have to do is make my ass move so that i can go get my apple pie. Ta now~

Sometimes

it is you i don't understand.

Ever find it hilarious that sometimes the person that you think you know or perhaps understand the most turns out to be someone that you don't really know and understand?

Or maybe it is because you really want to see and believe you know that person thus creating an image that's all in your head? Accepting all the plus side and denying every flaws, hoping that the flaws would go away? Hoping that all the good side is adequate or more than adequate to cover up the flaws?

We're just humans. We make mistakes. We do things that sometimes we can't explain it to ourselves. From mistakes we learn. From the flaws we recognize, we strive to change for the better.


and one thing i've never quite learn to stop is hiding and taking every hurt and disappointment inside, shutting it somewhere and slowly poisoning myself.


ps: i'm just a human too. i can't be perfect.

Mmmm..

As usual, i was chilling alone last night. The night before, dad accompanied me to watch this Malaysian movie called Love Matters. It was pretty good. Gives you a good laugh and some pretty good insight on life and love. =) but what's more interesting is the movie called


He's just NOT that into you.



Movie is based on a book actually and believe it or not, my elder sis bought the book way before it's made into a movie.


the book. the exact same cover!


I find the movie pretty intriguing. It revolves around a few couple with different relationship status and how it ends at the end of the movie. Most of them has a happy ending except for one. And that one was bad because the dude cheated on her and she was like trying to salvage it but it was only her and hers effort alone. So basically, i think the cheater deserves it. Deserve to get dumped. LOL.

Scarlett Johansson is hot. Before this i don't know what's the hype all about, now i know. haha. but too bad, she's the other woman. and she does it good. Justin Long is cute! Kyahh! xD

Okay, thing is, guys wouldn't really enjoy this movie because most of them are potrayed as jerks except for open minded ones who don't mind learning a thing or two about women.


Stephanie: I know your secrets.
Stephanie's Reflaction: And i know yours too...

Otherwise, i think girls should watch it! =) i think some can relate oh-so-well to these couples. =) it's not like a guide to tell you to be like them. it's more of, watch it and reflect on yourself,learn from their mistakes.

on a random note, shopping with a mum in super good mood is a good thing! =D she splurges on us well! =D


Godiva's CHOCOLIXIR.


We went for the Home expo in KLCC with mum. She was in a really really good mood! We had lunch in Dome before heading for the expo. After the expo, mum brought us to shopping! it was grreeeaattt! She really splurged a lot before we got this rm5 voucher for godiva. Then we went to the shop to get chocs. chocs cost like rm50 and above? it's madness! then we saw the chocolixir that costs like rm22 for one. Mum ordered choc peppermint which taste so heavenly!



Sandra have to have her choc at least one a day. i think she'd make a good chocolate model. LOL.
Sandra the Godiva Model.


Besides that, Gwen Stefanie's perfume smells really nice! Mum bought it. for herself. ps: doesn't mean we can't spray some on ourselves. hahaha. Okay, that's super random.


Just updating for the fun of it. Now i'd like to go play Jenny's fishshop. Ta now! =)

Vote for Ben! =D

the hunk. =P



As you guys know, ben joined the Loreal Talent Search competition. =)


and..


He's one of the finalists! Yay! *claps claps*



this is his pic posted in the webbie. don't go checking out other hot chicks or dudes. LOL.


So here's a favor i'd like to ask from you guys, vote for him here!


of course, the voting is entirely on your own free will. =) but i'd really appreciate your help in voting for him.


THANK YOU to those who vote for him and for those who don't, it's okay. =) afterall, beauty is in the eye of beholder. THANKS once again to the voters. =D


Q: Why should i vote for him?
A: Ben's not your typical dude that acts all macho and shit. He's down to earth and pretty realistic, not to mention smart. Sometimes he makes older ppl (namely yours truly) feel a bit stupid. He's a good listener and well, he makes profit out of that. Well, that's because he's a part time counsellor. Eh, scratch that. Ben's hardworking and he likes to help out living things, by that i mean human and animals. He organizes trips to old folks home, orphanage and SPCA to help out the needys.

He may have some mood swing issues but that only happens when he's under huge pressure like the most of us. He's real good at cheering people up. One fine example was we went to One Utama yesterday, it was already like 10pm and we entered this shop called Hinode to get some stuff. The cashier was a bit moody-ish looking and while i was looking for stuff, he talked to the cashier and later on she smiled and look a lot happier. =)

Overall, Ben's a really great person. Most of the time he goes all out to make someone's day. Not that i'm saying other contestants aren't great but right now, to win your votes, i've to sell Ben la. LOL. So vote for Ben! =)

Quickie!

Quickie sounds sooooo wrong!

But anyway, Cherating, i went and conquered. Mwahahaha. XD

Well, compared to Redang, Cherating is so so only la. but then, it's still gorgeous! =) At Cherating, at least we get to drive around, explore the town and Ben even drove us up to Kemaman! (that's terengganu already!) We left at about 6am and so begins our journey to Cherating! We made a slight detour as Ben took the fast lane. The fast lane to KL! HAHAHA!


we're in KL! I think that's called Jalan Maharajalela since the train station nearby is called Maharajalela.



at the Bank Negara roundabout.


Yeah, we had to u-turn back. The delay took us like.. 20 minutes? Hahaha. but we were in a good mood. Ben was practically laughing at those who were travelling to work. What a big meanie right? And soon we got to the right road and thus our journey truly begins. =)


road was clear! no cars! that's the East-West Highway. Whatever it is called. (-_-")


since i couldn't sleep the night before (due to excitement), i decided to take a nap only waking up when ben got stopped by Police! Dear was speeding near 180km/h! patutla kena! hmmph! he managed to sneak his way out and we lost rm30. =( eesh eesh. and dear didn't really learnt his lesson! always trying to speed up. and i was always, i repeat, always looking at his speed meter and reminding him not to exceed speed limit. *shakes head* guys. *sigh*


and soon we reach Cherating at about 10 something 11 am. it was awesome okay! the warm breeze. the coconut and pine trees. beach chairs. *swoons*


i think the pic would look so much better without me there. X3


Check in time was at 12. so we spend the next hour driving around town. well, the place was so quiet! and it feels dead. maybe it wasn't holiday season. Ben talked to the locals, and according to them, cherating isn't as "hot" as last time. they earn almost 90% less compare to last time. eek.


oily face! eekk!


and you wanna know what's the next best thing? We OWN the beach! yeah baby! there were a few ppl but ben and i were the only ones who totally go down to the beach, walk, race, built sand castles, pick seashells, bully some hermits. hahaha.


stephie and ben's baby.


ben doesn't wanna pose with his baby.


well, due to us wanting to spend lots of time by the beach, ben decided not to risk his baby love (his hp) hence, it's being kept away in the room. the first day, we didn't do much. ben had to nap as he was really tired but we hit the beach soon at around 4pm. We race along the beach, i was laughing so hard while running, ben was running in the water, hence some of the water splatter went into my mouth. eh, the water taste.. a bit.. sweet. it wasn't all salty like Redang's.

Then while Ben was playing with the sand (like a small boy), i went around, looking for hermits. they have tons of small little hermits! some as small as a grain of sand. a lot weren't even as big as a grain of rice! it was nice, sitting on a beach with the gentle waves caressing my legs and the warm breeze blowing my hair around. (ps: i look more like a deranged woman but who cares! *splash water around and grins cheekily*)

we went for their "huge pasar malam". and trust me it wasn't that big. it was medium size. but the people there sell a lot of food at dirt cheap price. the down side is, you don't see a lot of chinese and it gets intimidating there. we bought our dinner there before heading back to the hotel.


picturesque. =)


Since i missed out on watching breaking dawn in Redang, i resolved not to make the same mistake again here in Cherating. We woke up at 530, each had a cup of milo before heading out to the beach. the sky was brightening with a hint of pink.


pure bliss. =)


another one!


legs!


eh sun, faster come out la! =P



the couple. =) not ben and i.


even more picturesque. =)


sizzles.

burning hot.


rarara. i'm almost up!


i'm coming now so you better get the party started~


i'm up. you humans better get your ass covered or i'll burn you. xD



slippers~


wrapped in my pareo.



ben in red and white. xD


soon after, we went for breakfast and feeding spree. there's this feline, owned by the workers was wondering around begging for food. and after we fed it a few sausages, it smiled at us closing its eyes and crinkling up the nose. it was uber cute! too bad, ben hasn't transferred the pics to my comp yet. =/

the day was spent lazying about. we spend an hour by the beach in the morning before it got too hot and we went to the lazy chairs by the pools. it was total relaxation. X3 lunch was cup noodles and dinner at Kemaman again, this time at a restaurant called Bangkok. food was alright but we had to rush back as i wasn't feeling well.

well, i guess that's for now. =) just a mini update with a few pics. =P

Yeah, you know what i mean.

that's me. my window. and my vanity table mirror. LOL.


Let's see what have i been doing for the past weeks if not bumming at home and wasting my time? *thinks*

Okay. that is practically it. BUMMING at home. *sigh* missed archuletta's concert. =( well, partly, it was my fault for going on a spending spree and not allocating some money for the CD. =(

Missed out Nuffnang Music Bash that Sandra chided me to write a post and get us the tickets which i didn't. =(

taken by kristine.


And then, i fell sick on monday night. =( no symptoms and stuff. went to bed feeling all burn up, *spoiler alert!* exactly like how Bella felt during her change in Breaking Dawn.Thing is, while i was all heaty inside, outside i was freaking cold. And it wasn't a good experience for sure. *shudders at the thought of it* That night, i could barely sleep, waking up at around 4 to pop a panadol in.


Then the very next day which was tuesday, i spend my whole day throwing up. I think that's on the too much information category isn't it? LOL. Well, yeah. everything i eat OR drink will end up in the toilet bowl in a matter of time. dad took me to see doc in the afternoon.


i find this rather emo. but i wasn't.


i told the doc my prob,


and the doc gave me a jab somewhere near my pelvic bone. WTF can? =( he said, if i don't think the jab, i'll throw up whatever meds he's giving me. so really have no choice but to jab. =( Heck he even gave me anti-vomit medicine to double dose it.


Thing is, it didn't work. the jab nor the med. i ended up throwing up as usual. by night time, i gave up after throwing up my dinner which was nestum and my meds. I went to bed with no meds to back-up my system.


Bennie~!


Ben came visit yesterday. and at 1st i was still nauseous, but after a while, i felt instantly better. in fact, after that, i felt a whole lot better. Now i'm more than fine. =D


Owh, Ben got chosen for the Loreal Talentsearch thing! =) He went for audition on last saturday. Pray for him for the next round eh? =) I'm proud. of course i'm proud. =D

Courage is all i need.

They say in order to love someone, you have to love yourself first.

i say, it might not be true. or at least i don't really agree 100% on it.


cute pic courtesy of natalie s of akrichan.net.


It's weird you know. the phrase about loving yourself first. I find myself thinking about it. Does it mean you have to be selfish? To put yourself first before others? Or does it mean treating yourself right with respect and love?


i ponder. If that phrase applies..


i'll have everything that i wanted. designer handbags, limited edition phones, the most expensive laptop, the most beautiful dress, a nose job (=P), a knee job to be taller, a huge mansion with gorgeous furnitures, all the best seller books, a killer career, vacation to exotic places and the list just runs like water running down the stream.


i'll do the things that i want to do. join beauty pageants (which i don't think i have the guts), take up makeup course and hairdressing course, start my own dessert restaurant ( i love love love dessert!), open an online boutique, and it goes on and on.


i'll just be myself. say what i want to say (honesty is the best policy eh?). think what i want to think(being judgmental which i try to avoid). dress haggardly.(okay, that was just a joke!). i'd still wanna dress up like myself. =)


i'd be the ultimate B**** like queen Blair in gossip girl. on the second thought, maybe i wanna be claire bennet from heroes. then i don't have to worry about breaking any bones. xD



PORINGS! X3 uber uber cute!



So yeah, the term hardly applies. to me, i think. as in, love myself first. i think it's easier for me to love someone more than myself. i find it easier to give. it makes me happy to give. but if i give myself, i'd feel guilty. that, i don't know why. as much as i love giving, i love receiving too. =)



but i won't be a total doink la. i do love myself, if not i won't do some certain things which i want like dying my hair complete with highlights. getting myself a nice dress from an online boutique( yeah, i shop online these days ). sleeping early in the morning and wake up around noon. always changing my nail colour regardless fingers or toes.

and.. i realize...

it isn't enough.

i need courage.

courage to do the things that i want to do. especially posing for pictures. =P i don't think the cameras love me. i have to stop thinking that way. XD


and to prove that i love myself!


i'm gonna have lunch now. my stomach is growling.


and to show that i love ben,


i'll msg him. telling him i'm having the most wonderful lunch while he's in class. mwahahaha!


just kidding! =P



ps: i'll msg him to say the things that i want to say. =)