It's May and We're 11 Months Old.

trinkets and tube tob.


Hmm, May is just an hour away. *sigh* I hate May. Why? Exams! *wails*

Last year, it was a totally laid back year for me but this year.. *rolls eyes* i had been busy, busy and busy. Meetings, curricular activities, tuitions, etc. You know what? I've tasted the taste of being in charged with stuff, and guess what? I don't enjoy it. I don't mind taking responsibilities but what i hate is, i'm being laden with stuffs and there're no one that's trustworthy enough for me to actually delegate those works to.

and the worst would be, those teachers giving me those glares. I haven't been a good student lately, basically because i'm getting really bored with my studies. I'm serious. and the teachers teaching method simply doesn't appeal me to me. OMG. I'm 19 and i'm hating studies. How am i supposed to survive through my years in university?!


i need a break NOW!


Owh well, studies aside. Another one month time, Ben and I will be in for our 1st anniversary! Yipppeee! xD




I need suggestion on what i should get for him for our one year anniversary. =D


Any good suggestions? So far i had...

~* made origami for him. (a bowl of love!)

~* make a scrapbook on 101 Reasons Why I Love You

~* cook spaghetti for him. (which he did most of the cooking.. =X)


Any other suggestions? Please leave comments, I need ideas. =D Thank You~

Kristine Tagged ME.

Kristine is weird.


WHY?


Because a lot of people tagged her but so far she had only done YH (not chris or izit chris)'s tag.


Why am i complaining?



I don't know. Maybe. Just Maybe.. I'm JEALOUS. MYAHAHAHA. Just kidding! =P



So here goes the game, be prepared to get tagged later! =P


Five Things In Within a 1-meter Radius Of Me Now :
1. Gossip Girl Novel
2. A bottle of water
3. Cup
4. Headset
5. Necklace

Five Things Always Found In My Hand Bag:
1. Foundation
2. Blusher
3. Facial Blotter
4. Purse
5. Handphone

Five Things Found In My Wallet :
1. Money
2. I.C.
3. Driving License
4. Receipts
5. Cards (not playing cards)

Five Favorite Things In My Room :
1. Bed
2. BLOSTERS! =D
3. Pillow
4. My mess...xD
5. Comforter! X3

Five Things I've Always Wanted To Do :
1. To sit under a tree and read when the weather is absolutely FINE.
2. To just stay at home one day and watch tv without having to be bothered with other things.
3. To spend time with my friends. =)
4. Travel across the globe with Ben/ friends/ sisters/ family. =)
5. To be able to earn a lot so i could donate away some to the charity without thinking.. "this isn't my money but my dad's hard earns."

Five Favorite Anything's I Own :
1 My ring from him. =)
2 My accessories.
3 Hammies! *much <3* style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">Five Places I Want To Go :
1 Paris~
2 Rome~
3 Mauritius~
4 UK!
5 Milan! xD

Five Favourite Food Chains :
1 McDonald
2 Subway!
3 KFC
4 Sushi King~
5 Big Apple Donuts. *drools*

Five Favourite Movies :
1 Notebook
2 Wrong turn and wrong turn 2 xD
3 Harry Potter
4 Transformers
5 Pirates of the carribean

Five Favourite Songs AT the moment:
1 Our Song - Taylor Swift
2 With you - Chris Brown
3 Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
4 Until You - Shayne Ward
5 Realize- Colbie Caillat

Five Hobbies :
1 Sleeping
2 Onlining
3 Hanging out with my prince. =D
4 Reading good books
5 Hanging out with friends

Five Things I'm Currently Into :
1 Midterm! *screams*
2 More clothes!
3 More accessories!
4 Some weird stone which i'm oh so crazy about coz they make GOOD pendants.
5 the bunny with wings in sunway. it's cute. make that VERY cute. =(

Five Presents I Really Want :
1 Great Results for all my coming exams!
2 Happiness for everyone. =)
3 a little car. *kelisa, myvi, swift..* XD just as long it's not VIVA! xD
4 i want.. rm1 billion! xD *beats me what i'm gonna do with the money but owh boy! xD*
5 a holiday. just everyone i wanted to be there. =)


The Person Who Tagged Me Is :
Kristine Thong Mei Chuin~

My Five Impressions of Him/Her :
1 great friend
2 good listener, adviser * but she can be her own worst adviser =/*
3 curvaceous. =P
4 smart but lazy
5 kind. make that too kind these days.


The Most Memorable Thing He/She Has Done For Me :
hey, she has done a lot for me! =)

Five People I Tag :

I'm not gonna tag just 5. but everyone who reads it. =) do it if u like and if you don't, it's all up to you. Afterall, i wouldn't know if you've done it or not! =D

Anti Pervert . Anti Lala .

Hmm, don't know about you but i HATE perverts. Like really really hate them.



how do i categorize perverts? here are the few factors that are enough to make me put a man or a guy in the pervert category.

*~ A man aged 30 years old and above trying to add girls as young as 13 on social profiles such as friendster, myspace, tagged and etc.
*~ profile filled with explicit images such as pics focused on boobs or butts.
*~ leave lewd messages

there are other factors too but usually i look out the ones mentioned above. Some might think it's really shallow of me to categorize a man of 30 trying to make more friends but i believe a man of 30, if they DESPERATELY need a girl, they should go clubbing or go out more often, socialize instead of trying to look for girls ONLINE.

secondly, for a profile to be filled with explicit images, it's just DAMN sick. It's really brave of these perverts to actually let the world how sexually perverse they are! Some made it clear what they want while some..

Leave lewd messages. One word from me, SICKO.


Secondly, i may not have a damn good dressing sense but i seriously can't, i repeat i can't stand LALAs. I am very against japanese wannabe. Weird but true.


i don't hate them just their dressing sense.

Look at the pic above. How can your brain cells not die in the most excruciating pain?! The one in the yellow dress totally spoil a gorgeous pair of shoes. Seriously, i like her shoes but the socks?! it's a HUGE NO NO.

Besides that, i've actually seen girls in socks with slippers. HELLO? Can their dressing sense be anymore worst than WORST? It's either they wear socks or lose the slippers or wear the slippers and lose the socks. It's damn irritating seeing them not knowing how to dress up properly. I mean, decent clothing isn't THAT expensive or high end. I know there's a freedom of style but please, they can be japanese wannabe with style .


from a japanese fashion magazine.


SEE! They have got style!! compare it to the picture above. doesn't it gives you headache seeing bad wannabes with NO taste?!

I m in fact getting a headache now thinking of it. *sigh*

Since i've not updated for awhile, i just thought it's time to update with things i'm against.

Maybe another time, i'll update about protecting the dolphins, pandas <3 and urhh.. sealions.. and clown fish and Dory and.. and mammoths.. owh wait.. mammoths do not exist anymore and therefore i shall support it's descendants = elephant!

Urhmm hmmmm..

Today, i lost my patience again. I feel bad for blowing up at them BUT, it a bit tad hard not to. They were being noisy. Make that too noisy. PIFFIE.. >=3


the kononnya GAYS.

These two really got my blood boiling and another one of their pal.. seriously.. =/
you can say they're hyperactive, they CAN'T sit STILL for one moment. =/

but the one person that can make me laugh non-stop throughout the whole practice is..





Then this is the initial plan for the walk in. I think the conventional way is boring and i wanted something new.. and this is it.. :




the crab style with pink panther's theme song!

But we can't use that idea as it takes up a lot of time and therefore we had no choice but to stick to the almost conventional way.

with their butts facing the teacher.


Today's practice was at least fruitful but i think we need another day to have it all perfected which is impossible as the competition is tomorrow but owh well, i am glad that is going to be OVER soon!

till the next post! =)

Exhausting Week

It has been a really exhausting week for me.

had been staying back since last wednesday till today! not enough sleep, not enough time to revise and most of all, not enough time to actually spend on tv! *sniff sniff* and it's all for CHORAL SPEAKING.

and aso the 8 marks for curricular activities thingy. you think i'll waste my time on NONSENSE?!


I've got nothing much to say.. the videos shall describe 2 of the most craziest moment during practice. and it's NOT for just today. from wednesday till today. epp!




the guys lousy attempt to imitate rihanna's pole dancing skills. *shakes head*





btw, it's staring amirul ashraf, Raymond Tan, and Tan Cai Fung ( Chui Kheng's bf) *i believe these Tans are related to Benji Tan <3!* and last but not least...!




their REALLY good attempt in dancing the night fever song. it's sang by the GUYS!
in this video, it's staring : *from left* Chin Kong Heng, Tan Cai Fung (ck's bf), Seah Ming Wei and Amirul Ashraf. xD


my conclusion is....


MO NGAN TAI = No EYE SEE = I don't wanna look at them. X3

To Be Me.

As i sit here and wonder.

As i look out into the cloudy sky.



i see the clouds moving slowly across the sky.

I look into the grass to see what i wanted to see.

tall green grass, flowers, and butterflies fluttering in and out.

I wish to be. only me.



I wish to hear a lot of words from you.

I wish you could utter those words to me.

"you don't always have to be at par with her.."

I feel small having to be put beside her.

I feel vulnerable. naked. infront of the audience eyes.

but you, you, you..

will never say those words.



i am tired.

tired of proving myself to be an equal.

yet.. i m not willing to give up without a fight.

why, why, why

the words echoes in my mind.

because i am me.






I don't want to be put next to her.

i don't want everyone to look at me the way i'm supposed to be.

i want them to look at me like they're looking at Steph.

I want to do what i want to do

and yet, and yet..

i am doing things to please you and the rest

and it works that way.




that is how i feel.

not given a chance to prove i can fly.

not given a chance to show i could sing in a different way.

not given an opportunity to show i could maybe.. maybe.. dance..


and sometimes i ask myself..

is this really what you want?

i'll answer perhaps yes, perhaps no..

i was given a chance not a choice,

to live up to your standard.

to be the bird in the cage.

and freed one day.. one day..

it seems so.. faraway..



freedom is just..there..


*ps: feeling all tensed as midterm approaching and i can't answer questions during class today.*

A Quick Drop By. =3

I found this whole thing pretty accurate. it's a little weird but well, if it's sort of true, i don't mind putting it up on the blog.



urmmm, that's not the thing i wanted to share..

it's this really..

LOOK UP YOUR BIRTHDAY AND SEE WHAT KIND OF A PEST U ARE!!!

January 01 - 09 ~ Ass
January 10 - 24 ~ Slug
January 25 - 31 ~ Cockroach
February 01 - 05 ~ Parasite
February 06 - 14 ~ Bullfrog
February 15 - 21 ~ Skunk
February 22 - 28 ~ Snake
March 01 - 12 ~ Ape
March 13 - 15 ~ Cockroach
March 16 - 23 ~ Slug
March 24 - 31 ~ Parasite
April 01 - 03 ~ Ass
April 04 - 14 ~ Snake
April 15 - 26 ~ Slug
April 27 - 30 ~ Skunk
May 01 - 13 ~ Slug
May 14 - 21 ~ Bullfrog
May 22 - 31 ~ Cockroach
June 01 - 03 ~ Slug
June 04 - 14 ~ Skunk
June 15 - 20 ~ Ass
June 21 - 24 ~ Ape
June 25 - 30 ~ Parasite
July 01 - 09 ~ Slug
July 10 - 15 ~ Ass
July 16 - 26 ~ Bullfrog
July 27 - 31 ~ Parasite
August 01 - 15 ~ Ape
August 16 - 25 ~ Slug
August 26 - 31 ~ Skunk
September 01 - 14 ~ Bullfrog
September 15 - 27 ~ Parasite
September 28 - 30 ~ Ass
October 01 - 15 ~ Ape
October 16 - 27 ~ Skunk
October 28 - 31 ~ Snake
November 01 - 16 ~ Cockroach
November 17 - 30 ~ Parasite
December 01 - 16 ~ Ass
December 17 - 25 ~ Ape
December 26 - 31 ~ Bullfrog

If you are an Ass: A very loyal and sweet person. Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble and down-to-earth!! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little group of dignified friends, all of them being quality-personified.

If you are a Slug: Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what makes you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder people seek for your company and look forward to include you for all get-together's. However, you are sensitive which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath.God bless the person then!

If you are a Cockroach: Quite contradictory to your name, you are a peace loving person. You best try to avoid a situation where in you are required to fight. An outdoor person, you dislike sitting at one place for a long duration. You are a born leader, and have it in you how to tactfully derive work from people. You love being loved, and when you receive your share of limelight from someone, you are all theirs!!!! Well, well... hence some people could even take an advantage, flatter you to the maximum and get their work done. So be careful..

If you are a Parasite: An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy, with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool but when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.

If you are a Skunk: You are near to perfect and nice at heart. The examples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people. You too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return. You are generous enough. Seeing things in a practical light is what the best trait of you guys remains.


If you are a Bullfrog: You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life. Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected. In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of friends and good at consoling people in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware; it is easy for you to fall in love....

If you are a Snake: You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk. You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with your selected group. Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the way you desire, which, sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you.

If you are an Ape: Very impatient and hyper!!! You want things to be done as quickly as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. That way, you people are unique... You would like to keep yourself safe from all the angles. Shall your name be dragged or featured in any sort of a controversy, you then go all panicky. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are!!

Ben says it explains me well.. and i think it explains him well too! what abt you? =)

Of Dreams and Reality..

Hmmm.. what should i talk about today?


should i talk about Daniel Radcliffe? teehee~


I think i've finally pass the age of going gaga over extremely yummyliciousz actors. I'm serious! it has been awhile since i'm crazy over some actor.. back then i was seriously crazy about Daniel Radcliffe, Edison Chen and Daniel Wu.

Edison Chen turned out to be a... ewww... but it's the looks that matter!

I had my fair amount of fantasies too. I mean, you know, fantasized about having someone who look as well, cute as those 3 guys mentioned above, but that's a DREAM. Reality is always different, like it or not.

cute. wait till u hear him speak! xD i like it when he's acting gay. hahahaha!


What i've noticed is.. girls expect too much out of a guy and vice versa.

Last time, i'd like a guy with these criterias:

1) must look like EDISON CHEN
2) must talk like Daniel Wu
3) must have Daniel Radcliffe's style

But the in reality, that's just so impossible. =/ even if a guy of such exist, i'd most probably be the last girl in his list of wanted-girlfriends.

but that's not just the worst case scenario. I like good looking guys, who doesn't? and guys love good looking girls or hot girls with bod. in reality, people love to look at beautiful things. it applies to looking at the opposite sex. we tend to look at what appeals us the most.

but the thing is, some of us, can't have what we want, some can. it depends really.

my dream guy, i thank god, i've found him. but it's really out of the blue kinda thing. i wasn't looking. nor was i hoping for one at that moment.*bangga*

okay, that aside. i'm gonna zoom into what i really wanna talk about.

we get everything that's on the contrary. i am serious. my first bf wasn't what i've really wanted. heck, he was.. *i m not gonna bitch abt him here*.. and i don't want to talk about him here.

when i was 15. i wanted a guy that :

a)has the looks. the edison chen look that i've been talking about!


b)has the personality (gentlemen, caring, loving, etc)




c) pampers me like a princess

d) treats me right
e) treats my friends right

and the list goes on.

but what i've got. is not all of it. he lack the 1st criteria. he has a little bit of the 2nd. and he lack the rest. okay, maybe AT TIMES he treats my friends right. just at times.

so isn't reality like on the contrary?!

my elder sis once said she don't want a chubby guy as a bf, but she HAD a chubby bf then. seriously. she said that what you get isn't always what you've wanted. in fact, the guy has his flaws. =/

so, if you want :

a) a good looking (u get an average looking one)
b) a rich one ( u'll get an average one)
c) a smart one (u'll get an average one)

i think we should fantasize but leave it out of reality because we can't always get what we want in those fantasy ways.

when i found ben, i wasn't looking. i was just sitting down, waiting and looking around.

i've got a theory that even ben agrees. the more you look, the harder it gets. girls get turned off by desperate guys and vice versa. it's really undeniable. i've tried looking but i found none. and when i wasn't looking, it just fall into places.

so my whole point is.. stop yearning/asking for too much, you MIGHT not get what you want but.. all on the contrary..



happiness comes to those who are patient.

I know some of you guys might not agree. but think about it, who knows, you'll realize what i've said has some truth in them. =3 i m not forcing anyone to agree with me!

Another Tag~

This time's tagging is by non-other than Mr Chris Tan. =3

Just thought i shouldn't delay it anymore. =D

Name 5 people you can think of right off the top of your head.

1) Benjamin Tan - i miss him. =(

2) Kristine Thong - i miss her too!

3) Zattie - for not mewing me anymore.

4) CK - i see her everyday.

5) Raymond Tan - always has the hostile look. *sigh*

Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 5 people.This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first...NO CHEATING!

DON'T LOOK AHEAD UNLESS YOU FILLED UPTHE TOP!

1. HOW DID YOU MEET 1 ?
through friendster. =)


2. On a scale of 1 -10 how would u rate your friendship with 1 ?
20 over 10? hahaha!


3. How long have you known 4 ?
Since form 2 but never really get to know her till last year!


4. How do you know number 3
Through msn. =D


5. Wheres 5 ?
At home i guess. I don't know what is he doing. most probably on the comp, listening to his music. *ps: music freak!*


6. A fact about number 1 ?
He's taken~


7. Who is 4 going out with?
Tan Chai Fung~


8. What does 1 do for a living?
urmmm.. not working.. he's studying in coll.. =3


9. Would you live with number 3 ?
ahahaha! NO!


10. What do you like about number 2 ?
i like everything about her. *sounds gay but through* =D


11. Do you miss number 5 ?
NO. why would i? =/


12. Would you make out with number 4 ?
NUH! we're both damn straight okay?!


13. What’s your opinion of number 2 ?
a great fren to have~ =)


14. What's your favorite memory with number 5 ?
urhh.. none? *looks really earnestly* okay, maybe when he talks like he's a taiko.. (-_-")


15. What would you do if number 1 and 2 were going out?
urhhhhhhhhh... kill the both of them? hahaha! but i doubt they will la... =)


16. Ever had a long conversation with 5 ?
yeappp~


17. Have you ever slept at 2's house?
never! but i've been in her house for god-knows how many times.. =3


18. Do you hang out with 3 a lot?
nope... but we used to talk a lot... now less... =/


19. Who have you known the longest?
tadah! KRISTINE THONG~


21. How often do you talk to 1 ?
everyday! =3


22. What about 2 ?
not often but when we do.. *ps: what do we talk abt arh?*


23. Have you ever thought 3 more than a friend?
well...he's a really great person... =)


24. Would you go out for a date with 5 ?
SORRY! NO DEAL!


25. Do you dream about 2 ?
yeappp~ a few times la~


26. What did no 4 did to you that you can never forget?
urhmmm... wait for me coz i've got prefect meetings to attend? =D


27. What have you done for 1 that the person never forget?
hmmm... HMMM... you really must ask him urself... i don't know what i've done that's so unique.. xD


28. What's 3 hobby?-
i don't know.. urhmmmm... hanging out with friends..? he loves his frens very much!


29. Tag 5 people :

1) Benjamin Tan

2) Yap Jin Rui

3) Darren Ng

4) Kim Ross!

5) Steven. LOL.