What Hurts The Most?

back when i was 17.



By Rascal Flatts.


I'm talking about the song. though it has been like 3 years but i still like the song though it brings back horrible memories. *shudders* it also reminds me of the cameron trip with kristine and her family. i was damn addicted to the song.



it's lost now.


What Goes Around Comes Around by Justin Timberlake reminds me of Redang for god-knows-what-reason. Amen.


What hurts the most? I say, i won't know it now though i've been cut before. deeply. but that was like so long ago. so now whenever people talk to me about it, i know how it feels. the pain. the agony. the sleepless nights. the loss appetite. the tears. the part that's lost from your very soul.


sometimes, memories are not lost. they are just hide themselves after a long time.


but then, i think that's not the worst as there are other feelings just as bad. unrequited love. or knowing you already have that person but you can't have him/her due to unseen circumstances. I suppose, i understand why it makes people feel depressed. being rejected is also bad. i think i've been rejected before. it wasn't that bad because it was just a stupid rebound crush. LOL.


Before He Cheats by Carrie Underwood.


er, not that i've been cheated la. okay. i was. in another way. but it wasn't the i-found-him-in-the-bed-naked-with-another-girl kinda cheat but it does hurt the same. When a relationship is based on lies, lies and more lies, there ISN'T a foundation there. the worst part is finding out the lies, not white ones but those with the mean to hide something.


emo-period.


*sigh* i see people emo around me. i also emo. =/


i'm easily influenced. emotionally. which is a rather bad thing.


1st, one of my clossies.


2nd, he, who comes to me when he needs someone for an opinion.


3rd, she who says she falls in love with shayne ward's I Cry (which is f-ing emo).


4th, i just got a bunch of emo songs from Ben. (-_-")


5th, i feel so lonely.


ps: i should really be more cheerful. *sigh*