And All That's Left Are Just Memories.

bronze reminds me of antiques.


Well, I'm feeling sad. It's not a bad thing really. i mean, people do have to feel down once in awhile right? i can't believe time actually passed so fast, and that a week, my final week, has gone in a blink of an eye. *sigh* all these while, i've been lazying around. wasting my time online shopping and playing pet society to keep my mind off. okay, not really since i've been curtain shopping and running errands a lot but still, i can't believe my time here is up.


did i mention to you guys that i'm leaving?


yeah, i am leaving this place. maybe to a better place. i don't know. i mean, i sure hope there aren't any karaoke maniacs there singing god-knows-how-old hokkien and mandarin songs.


Today, i walk around the house, reminiscing the memories. it's funny how i'm about to leave this place after tomorrow. I think i'm supposed to feel all hyped up but then, no. i actually feel a bit down about leaving. Parents haven't decided to keep or sell the house yet. I just know Sandra and i will definitely buy this house from them when we get older.


mischievious duo.


Funny eh? Not so after you practically grew up in this place and all of a sudden, you're leaving. I shifted here back when it was 1995. I was 6. You can imagine how excited i was back then. i didn't have to worry about a single thing. heck, i didn't even have to pack my own clothes. things just come. and all of a sudden, at the age of 6, i own a wardrobe. a pretty big one too. a hand me down from my elder sis. haha. at 6, i was okay with a lot of things. =D


looking back, this is the place where a lot of events in my life take place. i learn a lot of stuff here. dad taughtt me things. granny taught me things. mum taught me things (by sheer force at times), elder sis taught me things, heck, even my younger sis taught me things. LOL!


I really am gonna missed this house.


Sandra and i were really the mischievious duo at home. we actually gave quite a lot of problem to my grandma i think. hahaha. we may be laughing at one moment and the next we'll be screaming and engaged in a catfight. of course, i'll win and sandra learnt the art of blackmailing!

she always go like "i tell mum you whack me!"


for a few years, i was tormented by it. i mean, sandra's obviously the apple of my mum's eye. if mum were to know i hit sandra. *shudders* i'll get caned, badly. so whenever she threatens me, i'll keep quiet and let her be.

then one day, she blackmailed me again. i couldn't take that kinda emotional torture anymore and i went like "tell lah!"


coz i love them. =D


but she didn't. =D one thing i love about sandra is, she's able to keep her mouth shut about my secrets no matter what. =D even if i smack, scold or do whatever to irritate the shit out of her, she will not revenge herself by telling me out. *sayangs sandra*


besides that, we've got a pretty big porch. dad bought us each a four wheeled bicycle. it was easy peasy. =D owh, and have i tell you that, i was actually a really friendly kid back then? i go around making friends with my neighbours! hahaha! i actually ask my grandma to teach me B.M just to get to know a couple of malay kids down the road! xD so yeah, i made friends with Michelle, Adrienne oh (yeap, the pretty girl from school), some dude back then whom i think i had a crush on, Su-Li, Gloria and Steven, Joey, Melvin, and.. and.. Jin Rui! hahaha!


and i remember last time, i used to cycle around a lot. and i wasn't afraid of talking to strangers. i don't think my parents ever warned me about that. or maybe they did but i really didn't listen. and while cycling about, i can actually make friends with other kids which were cycling about. it's dangerous! because..(= =) boys older than me talk to me and i usually responded. (-_-") i was lucky i wasn't kidnapped!


okay, besides that, this place is also where sandra and i accidentally hurt our granny during one of our catfights. i was pushing sandra. back then, i was taller and gangler than her. granny tried to stop us. i can't remember who, but one of us accidentally pushed her. she fell on her back and hit her head on the door. man. we immediately stop our fight and panicked. elder sis was there and she scolded the hell outta us. (-_-")



one big happy family~ =D


owh, did i mention, as kids, we used to hate our elder sis lots? coz to us she was stuck up. hahaha! basically it's cause she was a teenager and we were annoying brats running around screaming our asses off? hahaha. and she hated us for making so much noise. once she even scolded us. sandra and i planned revenge. lol. the plan was?


wake up at 3am and start pounding on jac's door silly before running back to our room. hahaha! sandra was already a good artist back then and actually drew stick figures of us. on jac's character it was written "takut sampai mati." i love that blue print but it went missing. hahaha! and well, we didn't carry out the plan because i was the one who talk sandra out of it. well, we planned that in the afternoon? so by evening, i totally forgot abt it. then at exactly 3am, sandra woke me up saying she WANTS to carry out the plan. i was like, babe, it's 3, and i wanna sleep and i continue sleeping.


then we learn how to cycle on two wheeled. and we actually learn how to rollerblade. thanks to gayanisha and ayusha for their generousity of lending us their rollerblades that we learnt how to skate. =D

after moving here, dad started spending more time with us, bringing us to the club house and he taught us how to swim! he was aso the one who encouraged me to ride my elder sis's bike though my legs were barely touching the ground.





dad taught me how to colour. dad taught me how to read. hahaha. yeah, he bought me peter and jane series. and taught me word by word. that's how i got hooked on reading. and now, our house actually has a clutter of books everywhere. living room, guest room, family hall, bedrooms, even toilets. LOL.


dad also bought us our first turtles 9the cheap rm5 ones?) . which in the end, he's the one having to clean and scrubbed them silly. he bought us fishes too. gold fish, guppies, baby kois, angel fish, siamese fighting fish and a few others. that' s when i really like guppies because they are colourful. i even witness guppy giving birth. (yes, guppies give birth, they don't lay eggs like normal fish). we even had terrapins. =D dad also bought us chicks!


my first chick was an orange baby chicken while sandra was a purple one. what happened to them? they ran away one afternoon after we played with them and forgot to put them back into cage. god knows what has befallen on them. then came another 2 brown chicks. one got taken away by a neighbour's dog which we know what fate has befallen on it, and another, my dad traded it to the chicken seller in the market. that night, i refused to eat the chicken.



cute? cinnamon roll. i bought it for sandra. LOL.


then came out first dog, real name snoopy, nicknamed brownie. hahaha. brownie was damn adorable when she was a pup. we loved her to bits. i remember her running towards us when we came home from school. but then, it was mere puppy love, once she got older, sandra and i tend not to pay her much attention, making her rebellious against us and lack love. *sigh* i regretted it. i mean, she was a gentle dog. very feminine but she left the world about 2 years back. and that's when i realize i actually loved her. she died of cancer.


then my dad bought another pup. we named it mocha. mocha was adorable too! but mocha was.. (-_-") not so feminine. she's very active. very hyped. very.. (-_-") dirty as well! she likes rolling in the mud. (-_-") but mocha, though lack love, was a really obedient dog. =) and a pretty good watch dog too! =) then dad took her for mating and she gave birth to 9 pups. really cute ones. because back then i was a science student, i helped her with her giving birth process. LOL. and you know what? she stole my limelight that year. why? cause she gave birth on 2/12/2005. my sweet 16 birthday. but it doesn't matter because the pups made it up. =D


but sadly, mocha passed away during her 2nd year of pregnancy in 2007. she was heavily pregnant and we didn't know she wasn't feeling well. we went out for dinner and came home to find her dead in the bushes. that hit me hard.


then my dad got a new pup a few months later. name is milo. *shudders* i'm sorry to say, he's an owner's nightmare! X3 and we gave him away after not being able to cope with his antics.


my bed! =D just the frame. teehee.


then this is also where i got my first hamsters! hammie and snowy. hammie ran away. snowie and her offsprings were eaten by cat after the fateful death of mocha. *sigh* but hammie jr (2nd generation) and miney (2 generation) survived. both died last year in december due to old age. now i own ONE roborovski.


and this is also the house where my elder sis got married. =) happy ending in year 2007. =) sandra and her were both crying a lot on the actual day where she got married. i was miffed because everyone was relying on me. (-_-")


actually, there're lots more worthy memories, but then, i think, i'd love to keep those in my heart. =)


and yeah, i'm shifting on sunday.


in the same place but diff section and definitely a bigger house. i believe, we can build new memories there. =) but first, all the cleaning and furniture buying have to be done. epp!

Of Dramas and Tears

doesn't exist in real life, or does it?

I used to think HK dramas are really over rated. i mean, who would argue over small lil stuff?

it happened today.

she is F-ing hypocrite. anything goes wrong, blames steph. had a bad day, vent it on steph. steph said the wrong thing, zooms into it and attacks that sore spot.

yeah. i had a bad one with her today. almost decided to actually leave the house for good. i salute my dad for his patience and love. i admire my dad the most for that beautiful quality of his.


obviously i m the smaller bear.

Q: what is the cause of today's war ( i had one ally while she had none, mwahahaha!) ?


the cause.

A: One word : Curtains.


Yesterday, my lovely younger sis n her went to look for curtains in macy. apparently curtains there aren't as beautiful or lovely as they thought. so they didn't buy any. she F-ing pin the blame on me saying that because i wasn't there they couldn't buy anything.

Steph : HELLO?! You can always f-ing buy whatever you want without me there okay? i don't have to pay for it. you do. get whatever you want. i can always get it another day. buy whatever you think is neccessary.


but reality is, they didn't buy anything. and the so called reason coz i was NOT there.


then she ask me to go get the f-ing curtains. i said okay with the help of sandra. sandra was bloody blur alright. it was also because of my mum indecessiveness, she was soooo blur about a lot of things. dad LAGI blur. then since no one was there to decide. i was stupid n i took the liberty to decide. look, i admit i m not the smartest on earth or in the family. it didn't occur me when i made the f-ing decision for everyone.
i bought white curtains for daylight curtain. and i bought it for the each window.

Q: define daylight curtain.
A: daylight curtain is the inner layer, the one close to the window, usually in translucent material to lighten the blazing sunlight streaming in to the house.

then she f-ing have to scold me saying the material didn't worth the money. she chided me from mahkota all the way to guardian in sg long and all the way home. i had enough. i yelled and scream back at her. saying things that i've hidden inside for so long. and she was taken aback. then she started attacking me for the things i said.


jeng jeng jeng!


before turning into the street, she ask me to get out and to not go home. which i said fine. i got out and slammed the f-ing door. then i walked home. boy, i was f-ing pissed. when i got home, dad came out n brought me in. when she saw me, she started asking me to leave which i said I WILL!


then i went into my room. she had to come after me. i called my elder sis and said i wanna stay with her for the rest of my life. LOL. then that woman have to keep screaming for me to leave. my dad came up. ( that's when i feel he's damn manly, hahaha!) he said to my mum in a really confident n loud voice. "She's NOT going anywhere, you are being unreasonable!"


but dad got into trouble for helping me. mum actually asked him to leave. (-_-") which he said "fine, i'll leave with her." by then i was crying. i was so pissed. i started crying. i wasn't sad. i was bloody angry. (-_-") god, i havent got so angry till i cry but this, i was pissed. i packed my bag and left. waiting for my dad. then dad argued some more. and before i know it, i was in the house. and my mum was still f-ing attacking me. *sigh*


it was bad. but i calmed down after that. and you know what? for that moment, i really hated her and i wished she wasn't my mum but i can't do much rite? i mean, this is life. i can't choose my mum. my dad said that. ben said that. royston said that.

then everything was resolved. but i dont think i wanna see her YET. dad asked me to apologized for what i said. i didn't apologized. i don't think i was at fault. and i wouldn't. or maybe i would. when i m in the mood but right now, i won't. coz i didn't do anything wrong! hmph!

4th Of Jan

you and me. =)

Yeap, Kristine Thong Mei Chuin was born on 4th of Jan 1989. =D Just imagine if she was born 5 days ahead! We wouldn't even be such close friend nor hanging out together! *a horrible thought that i wouldn't want to think of!*

She held a party on the 3rd of Jan aka last Saturday. The reason why i couldn't post this entry any sooner was because my darling comp was infected with the trojan virus. Nasty little things they were. *shakes head* totally nasty.


i really hate my cheeks. =/


Anyway, this entry isn't going to be about me, how i enjoy seeing her drunk or how i love the sausages despite their looks! =P this would be a post mainly about her. =) I've never done anything for her, or at least i thought so. i've never said anything that changes her life. i've never been a perfect friend. and i'm always or usually the last to know about things going on in her life because my lack of skill to communicate or keep up with people's life or you can actually say the world revolves around me while i'm in my lair (namely, my house).



the trio of what's left back of S.K.T.R!



Kristine, came into my life (sounds so gay, tsk tsk) when i was 11. Well, she was transferred to S.K.T.R from Sri Garden. Back then, i've no idea what's private school or gov school. I just know a school is a school. thinking back right now, i think it must been such a shock and scary to actually come to a gov school with no friends. alone. and totally awkward. but she was lucky as that primary school mainly consist of malay and there were very few chinese around. =P as a kid, i was pretty friendly. i like to approach people but not now. i shudder at the thought of talking to perfect strangers.



the first time i saw kristine, i thought she was pretty weird. tall, skinny, wears glasses, long hair and shy. she couldn't even speak a word of canto. just english. now here's the weird thing, my english back then was really bad though i read enid blyton! xD it improved somewhere when i was 14 or 15, only realizing that i shouldn't be afraid of words! xD




In primary school, i am sad to say that kristine isn't my close friend. We barely talk to each other as i recall. even if we do, i can't remember much. I used to think she was a smart kid, not that i don't now but i was intimidated. afterall, she speaks english! hahaha! and she has that very mature aura that surrounds her. it's weird that she has become such a playful thing while i become more serious and less laid-back. everyone i know seems to change into aggresive, complicated people to fit the society but kristine was the otherwise. she became more simple and less complicated.




i didn't know becoming 20 is so depressing! xD bear with me when i m the one tearing kay? hahaha!



naive was never a word to describe kristine. she was never naive. in fact, i think she knows the world better than most of us at the age of 11. Kristine's unique. she has no crushes or whatsover. =/ i do know i started having crushes at the age of urh.. 10? LOL. it's weird. but anyway, it didn't apply to Kristine. She only started having crushes recently! =P


Since i couldn't say much about her last time when we were kids, i certainly have much to say about her now!


goned but still looking hot. hey, these 2 would make a cute couple eh? xD



from an ugly duckling, kristine has became a hottie! she's not ur typically bitchy type of hottie. she knows she's hot but she doesn't really show it. she's patient in listening. but a bit whiny at times. she gives really good advices and she loves helping people. =) She's the kind of person who don't really mind being taken advantage of just to please people(don't think naughty!). i've seen it. and sometimes, i feel like smacking her for being so damn kind. but then if i do, then i'm the evil one who stop her from being herself.




She's also a really strong person. she sees tears as some kind of weakness back then but i hope she has changed her view because i think it isn't. we've really opposite view in this matter. =D i think she needs to let out her tears freely. it's healthy to cry when u're over-joyed or over-sad. LOL. Kristine has been there when i need someone though i know she must be thinking i'm a really stupid person. *you know what i'm talking*. she has real good patience on me! She bought me ice-cream when i was depressed, how cute right? =3 thinking back, if i was kristine, i would have smacked myself silly for being so bloody stupid but stupidity has it rewards. *grins* from that, i know who my true friends really are. =3 truth is, all of them are. LOL. i don't have many friends. =(



the high. the drunk and the less sober. ps: is it ok if i submit this pic to the stars paper? i might win rm100 from it. =D


Kristine, being 20, isn't that bad alright? you should be happy that we've accomplished a few things in life and that we've got so many years ahead of us. =) don't u worry about it, okay? =)

and hey, you're a great friend to a lot of people. your ups and downs, we're always here no matter what. so stop thinking stupid stuff silly!


there isn't much i have to say now really, except.. Happy 20th Birthday! =)


ps: enjoy life as it is. =3

And I say Goodbye 2008 and Welcome 2009. =D

2008 is nothing but another year to our memories. =(

honestly, i don't know what to summarize about my year. i've been through a few ups and kinks.

so 2008 started without much of a kick to be honest. hahaha! just kidding~ well, it started of with me celebrating new year with friends. =) and then went through some turmoil and dreamland, there was a lot a of happiness but at the same time there was an adequate amount of sadness and emo-ness.

all that's left, is just a memory.

Health:

All year round, stephie had been healthy except for a few fevers, sorethroats and flu. Stephie hadn't been exercising much, just a lot of walking hence the flabbiness these days. and also, stephie hadn't been eating healthily. lots of junk food. chips, sweet, sour plums, fried stuff and etc.

Studies:

Studies was alright i guess. okay. Stephie hadn't been completing lots of assignments and totally regretted the all year-round laziness during the exams. Otherwise, Stephie had been revising and studying for each exam and had dutifully tried her best in everything. Another thing that Stephie regretted is, not attending all the extra curricular activites, hence the low mark. About her exams, She had been pretty depressed during that month. She suffered and brokedown almost everyday and vowed to never ever follow her parents bidding when it comes to studies. =D


and i love her sial.


Personal:

Stephie made a few friends though not close. Still sticking to the old ones, hanging out occasionally. Of course, there have been a few misunderstandings among peers. family relationship wise, stephie have been getting along well with them except a few kinks and heated arguments with the gemini (mum). for some reason, this sagittarian here can't get along well with gemini. and it seems to be a proven fact. so sod those horoscope books about saggitarians get along well with geminis when in fact, a sagittarian like me does NOT. i repeat, does NOT get along well with gemini. i get along well with pieces (daddy and bennie), capricorn (Kristine n CK), Leo (Sandra), Librans like Yuyan n Mel and urmmmmm.. Scorpio (elder sis and a few others)


when we are suppose to look good.

Love wise, it has been great. a few arguments here and there but nothing big. =) still a lot more to understand ben. learn a great deal about his family and relatives. =) especially like his little cousin Kim. xD she's cute! xD


over the years.


Financial:

Very happy to declare broke. for some reason, i spend a lot this year. =( so yeah, broke. and will get a job right after CNY. i m thinking of kindergarten teacher or tuition teacher for kids. LOL. But of course, the gemini in my family will NOT allow. She likes to see her daughter becoming a clerk n suffer sleepless night working for the elder sis. yeah wey. One of my sis's company clerk was so bloody stressed till he suffered from insomnia. he wanted to hand in resignation letter but the boss wouldn't allow and gave him a 2-4 weeks holiday to recover. man, if i were him, i'll throw the letter in. no job is worth sacrificing my health!


and i have faith it will last with more sweet moments to come.

and i say welcome 2009! xD May this year be better than the last in all aspects! xD especially the money and studies part. =P this year would be a diff year as i m soon to be a uni student, doing my bachelor degree in.. whatever course that i might b taking in the future. =) and urhm... if i get accepted to local uni, i'd be so far from home.. *sobs and sniffs*