For One More Day..

Ever wish you could go back to the past and smack yourself for all the silly things you had done or said? I had.

Ever wish you could be a kid once more, so you could play hide and seek without worrying that your butt is sticking out so obviously? I had.

Have you ever wish you can have a holiday, a real holiday with your family again? I had.

Have you ever wish that you can hug your parents without them asking "What's wrong?" ? I had.

Ever wish they would both hold your hand while you walk in shopping malls? Or you could throw a tantrum because you can't have you ice cream? I had.

I just turned 18 about 2 months back. And now it suddenly hit me that my age counter is going up and never going back down. It smacked me hard that, I'm growing up and that they are treating me as adult. I'm left with dealing with my own stuff. and it hit me harder that i'm no longer gonna be a teen anymore but an adult..?

Now, if i want an ice cream, i can just simply take the toyota out just to get it. or slurpee. or my stationaries. or go to pasar malam.

being strapped on.

I realize life is like on being in a car on the passenger seat. As a kid, you're strapped on on the kid's safety seat. Then as you grow older, they take away that seat and you need to have your safety belt. Later the safety belt starts to loosen and as years goes on, you don't need it anymore, the result of being rebellious, and having a little to much faith in the driver's driving. before you know it, you're the driver itself, making your own decision on where you want to go, not truly needing the driver anymore.

I really don't have any idea what am i talking about really. But as i sit here at 11.38pm on a Saturday, i realize my life changed a whole lot. Saturday nights used to be nights where my family go out for dinner and then shopping at midvalley, klcc or leisure mall. Now? My mum went out with her pals. Dad went mamaking with his new found friends, Jac's married and she's in her own place, Sandra sleeping on account on being sick and me? I'm here lamenting all this on my own blog.



When did it all stop being the way it used to be? Did we fall apart or is it just the way it is? I don't know really. I'd like to think our relationship is still good and we're still a tight knitted family. Don't worry, there's nothing wrong with my family. I'm just not tired nor sleepy though my muscles are aching almost every part of my body.

WHY? because i went for my school's road run yesterday.

Yeash, stephanie lee actually joined the cross country programme after 4 years of absence. And guess what? i completed the whole (almost) 6km track in 50 minutes time and i was in top 60. and i suffer the consequences today. butt ache. thighs ache. stomach cramps. i was beat but i'm still kicking and running.

Anyway, it's just a random post. i'm seriously bored. think i'll get to bed. hopefully my parents would be home soon, or it'd be me calling and sounding them instead of them on me when the clock strikes 12am. Hey, i believe in the term which goes "what goes around comes around~" which is why justin timberlake's *what goes around comes around* is still one of my fave song, it sounds totally sweet and pleasing to the soul. *evil smiles*