I need time.

After a long holiday, it's kinda hard to get back with life especially one that is so busy.

i promised to blog soon but it looks like time is so not on my side. X)

I also thought that being a law student could be as free as kristine. i was dead wrong. I have classes everyday except for friday and sunday. Monday from 8am till 4pm. Tuesday 8am till 4pm. wednesday 8am till 8pm. thursday 8am till 3pm and saturday 9am till 12pm. with an hour break at some time or straight four hours together. packed right? and the stupid dorm community has a meeting almost everynite at 930 or 1030. then each student's required to join at least one society or association. (-_-"). guess what? i joined buddhist association. LOL. simply because the club doesn't require its members to be very active and get good marks.

Then there's this thing called FACT NIGHT. it's like prom only a smaller scale involving only students from their own faculty. aish. it's this coming saturday and newbies, namely, the first years are supposed to run the whole thing and do performance as well. guess what? a stick like person like me joined dancing instead of drama. wtf. why didnt i joined drama? *wails* meaning, this whole week, any free time will be used to practice dance moves. my god. i wanna chicken out.

on top of that, assignments and tutorial classes are starting this very week as well. *how to juggle everything la, wtf.*

and now i m emo. ben's sick. been taking care of him since yesterday. a lot of our plans are cancelled. *sigh*.

i haven't watch harry potter. and i am very emo about it.

i am very emo that my dad bought me nasi lemak this morning. why? coz i've to survive on malay food for the whole week and i come home expecting something like chu cheong fun for breakfast and i got nasi lemak instead.

i also, didn't have enough sleep. that pisses me off as well.

GRRRRRR.

Home

No place feels as good as that. Not even the most expensive hotel suite..*pause* okay, maybe the most expensive hotel suite might you know, alter the fact that it feels better than home but there's NO place like home.

well, i've had my taste of living away from home in a DORM. the horror. i know. where you shower in a shared toilet with a few cubicles with no hot water. where you can only get food at the cafeteria. where sometimes you have to survive on bread, buns, biscuit or cup noodles. it's not fun. where you have to travel in shuttle buses and missed it when you're 5 minutes late to the bus stop.

so the thing is, i'm in UKM now. The place is alright. but don't expect to see many chinese or indians. my room is..half of my room size at home.. and i have to share it with another girl named Kai Lee. She's also taking law course which makes it better. thank god we're both from nearby or else i would feel bad leaving her alone whenever i go home on the weekend. my schedule now still look okay but it's gonna be super packed by the fourth week. *sigh* it makes me wonder if i had made the wrong decision but on the more positive note, all the activities here are to mould us into lawyers so that it'll be easier for us when we graduate. you know what? i can't wait for that day to come and i'm not even 2 weeks here.

why did i say there's no place like home?

home, you have your parents and you sibling/s. your meals are provided. you have the tv and computer to yourself. hell you even have your own bathroom in your room. home, also a place where alll your close friends dwell in 5km radius. at home, you can even have snacks. biscuits, sweets, cold drinks and etc. you even have your very own comfortable bed with comforter and 2 or 3 fluffy pillows not to mention your soft toys. i m thinking of my bennie bunnie and mmer mmer. XD

here.. you can't have all those.

*sigh* i m getting more homesick as i talk abt it. i better shush it or else. *shudders*

it's weird you know. i hate going to camps. i basically hate leaving home and now i am not home. and i do feel homesick but.. not THAT bad. most probably i am taking in the comfort of knowing home is just 20km away and that my parents will come an hour after one phone call of asking them to come pick me up. and also, the comfort of knowing that i'm not alone in this, that other people are facing it too. that this is the beginning of my life as an adult, too.

i hate growing up.it means spreading your wings and leaving the nest. i am slowly doing that. and it's gonna be a long process, as i see it.

kristine, now i know why you were crying on your 20th birthday. it does suck when the realization hits me. and it's sorta hitting me now. =(

i guess that's all for now. will update as soon as i can. =) most probably it will be soon. =)

till then, take care people.=)

Just Dance

People~

I've an announcement to make. I've finally got my appeal result and yes, i've got it.

I've UKM's Law. Obviously i didn't want UKM but the course is what i want. *sigh* and i didn't want to go for it but i guess i've no other choice. i argued with my parents, cried the whole night and day but to NO avail. so, i really have no other choice. owh well.

I'm not sure if i've to stay on campus or am i allowed to travel everyday. so we'll see how things work out tomorrow. everything happened so fast, things just came like that and honestly, i am quite shocked. my holiday has finally ended. =(


ps: the world is quiet and it doesn't hear you - Ben

Heroes.

Mohinder Suresh (as the narrator): The world isn't small but you are and fate will find you eventually.

Well, i'm okay now. the past 2 posts were very angst ridden. haha. i know. and it bores the shit out of people to have me repeating the same thing.

well, i haven't really sort out my life yet but wth right? i'll just go with the flow. my parents finally backed me. and i'll tell you, i'm very surprised by it.

on the other note, i'll have another 2 more months to bum around before the real thing starts. So what have i been doing? i've been a couch potato, watching series. HEROES from season 1 till season 3 had been real educating. LOL. seriously, i love the narration and sometimes the dialouge itself. And Peter Petrelli said something that i will, most probably live-by AGAIN. what do i mean by AGAIN? I was like what he said once but it didn't get me anywhere and then i changed, and it didn't get me anywhere as well. so i think, i'll just settled back to who i was. changes, might be good but sometimes, it isn't.

and that doesn't mean i will see things as naively as i was before.

CHUCK season 1 and 2 is really awesome. it's a nerds/geeks show. only nerds/geeks will understand it. scratch that. it is actually really nice and it's NOT at all geeky or nerdy. nerds/geeks and secret agents, nice! =) not to mention, it's really really funny.

now i'm on GOSSIP GIRL season 2.

okay, as you guys know, the gov has finally decided to scratch english for science and maths and reverting back to BM.

i THINK, it's a very very stupid move. make that idiotic. they have only tried english for like what 7 years? and they expect the students english at par with western countries? it's stupid. if these 7 years hasn't shown any improvement, it's like an alarm being sound. it shows how bad our english are. and they want things to go back to BM.

it doesn't matter if they added more time for english lesson. english is another language that needs practising whether it's writen or spoken. and their reason for terminating english is because the they ASSUMED rural students can't handle it. if they can't handle school level english, how are they gonna handle the world later? contracts, documents, reports, they are all written in english that is so formal, sometimes, i don't even know what is it and i totally give up on reading them.

thing is, they are protecting these people so much that they didn't realize they are destroying them and the generation after.

it's like the saying, give a person a fish for a meal and that person will ask for a fish for the rest of his life.

teach a person to fish for his meal, and he'll be able to fish for himself for the rest of his life.


the way things are, people will get too reliant on the gov. it's time to step out of the comfort zone. things may not be improving now but what about years later? 7 years for english is a very short time. if that 7 years were the age of human years, it means our english is still like a child. still growing. still have rooms for improvement. and they have decided to not continue it. what a waste of time and effort. they have just killed a child, metaphorically speaking.


on an ending note, you can't get a tree tomorrow if you've just planted the seed today.